So the end of the year is here. A few more weeks til New Years. I'm writing this for a reason. Alot has changed this year. I have changed this year. Whether it be for better or worse, I have changed. I gained friends, I lost friends. Everything seemed to have changed this year. I had my firs t hospitalization this year. I never ever thought I would wind up on a crisis unit. My depression got out of control. I still can't control it but it is some what better. This was where I gained friends. or became closer to some friends.
Michael, you were there the night I went in, you were my support for going in. If I wouldn't have had your support I never would have gone in and gotten the help I so deprestly needed. You have been there for me since day one and was there for me when I got out of the hospital. You're one of the closest friends I could ask for. You were there for me during the struggle I dealth with at home and when I had my mental breakdown last year. You taught me to fight for what I believe in and to chase my dreams.
Eymber, You have been there for me for awhile now. Since I dated Travis. I don't remember exactly when we started talking but you are an awesome friend. You're always there when I need somebody to talk to. Your son is absolutely gorgeous and I'm glad to have you as my friend. You supported me going into the hospital and I appreciate it. You seemed to understand it. You also understood everything when I told you my situation with Travis. You know if you need anything you are always welcome to ask.
Patti, we met randomly on facebook but it was meant to happen for a reason. You may be an older lady but you make a wicked awesome friend. You support me in the decisions I make and you have some wicked amazing crafts. I love all your little knic knacks and your recipies of course. You're the baking queen! I really hope that we get to meet soon so I can learn all your arts and crafts stuff. Oh and I want to learn some of your baking skills.
If you haven't made this list, don't worry you're still my friend. These are my three closest friends that have supported me this past year. I know I wouldn't be here without you guys.
Now onto my next part. The upcoming year. I have a feeling 2010 will bring changes for me. Big changes. Now that I have my disability, I want to go to school and my degree in General Studies. I'm already working on getting enrolled with the college I really want to go it. I just need to work on getting a scholarship (or two) and register for my classes. Of course I can't do that til I find a place to live. I'm in the process of looking right now It's hard when you aren't actually looking at the places but I will have to talk what I can get for now. Plus it gives me time to save up some more money. I mean i'm pretty sure I am allowed to do this. Get myself a degree and go chase my dreams. I've been told to chase my dreams. Go after what I believe in. I may be disabled but I do have dreams. Ever since I was in high school, before I dropped out. I wanted to go to school. So why drop the dream? I'm going to chase it unless finances get in the way.
Another change I see in the future is friends. I have a feeling once I start school I will make a ton more. I mean I already made a few in Minnesota (I haven't hung out with them yet) but they are still pretty cool people. Patrick, an NCIS freak like me, Aiden, Sarah, Ashley (well I met ashley we just dont really hang out). All these people are pretty freaking cool. Michael says there are so many friends I should make when I go to school. Friends who should actually accept me and not judge me for being different. Yes I am different. I have accepted it a long time ago that I'm not like many others. I believe in different things. I have a tattoo and piercing addiction, and yes I am an open bi sexual. If you have a problem with me because of any of this then you really shouldn't be my friend. You don't judge a book by its cover so why should you judge me for what I look like.
To 2010 a year of change, may you bring me a good year.
Michael, you were there the night I went in, you were my support for going in. If I wouldn't have had your support I never would have gone in and gotten the help I so deprestly needed. You have been there for me since day one and was there for me when I got out of the hospital. You're one of the closest friends I could ask for. You were there for me during the struggle I dealth with at home and when I had my mental breakdown last year. You taught me to fight for what I believe in and to chase my dreams.
Eymber, You have been there for me for awhile now. Since I dated Travis. I don't remember exactly when we started talking but you are an awesome friend. You're always there when I need somebody to talk to. Your son is absolutely gorgeous and I'm glad to have you as my friend. You supported me going into the hospital and I appreciate it. You seemed to understand it. You also understood everything when I told you my situation with Travis. You know if you need anything you are always welcome to ask.
Patti, we met randomly on facebook but it was meant to happen for a reason. You may be an older lady but you make a wicked awesome friend. You support me in the decisions I make and you have some wicked amazing crafts. I love all your little knic knacks and your recipies of course. You're the baking queen! I really hope that we get to meet soon so I can learn all your arts and crafts stuff. Oh and I want to learn some of your baking skills.
If you haven't made this list, don't worry you're still my friend. These are my three closest friends that have supported me this past year. I know I wouldn't be here without you guys.
Now onto my next part. The upcoming year. I have a feeling 2010 will bring changes for me. Big changes. Now that I have my disability, I want to go to school and my degree in General Studies. I'm already working on getting enrolled with the college I really want to go it. I just need to work on getting a scholarship (or two) and register for my classes. Of course I can't do that til I find a place to live. I'm in the process of looking right now It's hard when you aren't actually looking at the places but I will have to talk what I can get for now. Plus it gives me time to save up some more money. I mean i'm pretty sure I am allowed to do this. Get myself a degree and go chase my dreams. I've been told to chase my dreams. Go after what I believe in. I may be disabled but I do have dreams. Ever since I was in high school, before I dropped out. I wanted to go to school. So why drop the dream? I'm going to chase it unless finances get in the way.
Another change I see in the future is friends. I have a feeling once I start school I will make a ton more. I mean I already made a few in Minnesota (I haven't hung out with them yet) but they are still pretty cool people. Patrick, an NCIS freak like me, Aiden, Sarah, Ashley (well I met ashley we just dont really hang out). All these people are pretty freaking cool. Michael says there are so many friends I should make when I go to school. Friends who should actually accept me and not judge me for being different. Yes I am different. I have accepted it a long time ago that I'm not like many others. I believe in different things. I have a tattoo and piercing addiction, and yes I am an open bi sexual. If you have a problem with me because of any of this then you really shouldn't be my friend. You don't judge a book by its cover so why should you judge me for what I look like.
To 2010 a year of change, may you bring me a good year.
anyways, Happy X-mas