lacunalethe

I used to feel like being in control was something really important to me. My way of being in control was to always make sure I was working and try to be as objective as possible. SInce about 5 months ago I've been feeling like fuck it. You know will I ever get out of debt. Will I ever get published. Will I ever do anything real or important. Just fuck it. I've given up thinking about it. There's more to it than that but it's all to strange to put into words. There's been some kind of major shift in my frame of referece.