lacunalethe

Lately I've felt so horribly outside of everything. There's a palpable distance between me and everyone in my life. It's strange. I hate feeling this way. I hate being outside. People need a connection of some kind. I haven't had much time to myself and all the things I've promised I'd do are stacking up. Things have been chaotic. I can't wait unitl Edison is older. I don't know if I'll have any more time but I figure Mercedes & I will at least be better at time management and we'll be able to sleep through the night. Things have been hard. Edison is awesome though. I could stare at him all day. almost 2 months old. Maybe that's the weird thing, usually when you're busy as hell time flies by. But ever since he was born time has slowed to a crawl and there are so many things to do I don't know when I'll catch up. Fuck. I rambling.