lackluster

man i am a WALKING HARD ON lately.



seriously. im seeing someone who i havent fucked yet, and its killing me, but in a really hot way. its kind of exciting. it makes me want him really bad.
i gave him a tiny kiss tonight after he dropped me off at my car from dinner and i was so wet.
i went home and m bated like 3 times... so FAR.

mmmmexciting!
weirdly, im not even sure if im his type. and he's never really directly said if he thought i was pretty or hot or anything. but i mean.. come on.. he's got to be thinking it, right?
i feel like such an insecure little girl when i think that i need compliments to feel good about myself. its not really that, but it sure sounds like it when i blog it like it matters. its just that ive never really dated a guy that didnt make some little comments about how cute or pretty i was randomly in conversation. whatever, this is sounding shittier than it is, so im going to leave the subject.


in other news ive been really sick and off work for like a week. last night a really rad internet dooder, much like yourself, im sure... hooked me up with some spoon tickets. i took my favorite chris ever, and then i got all sick and we didnt actually go in to see the band. im so sad i love that new album. but seriously, i cant be too bummed ive seen spoon like 8 times. its like the one band i cant get away from. i always end up seeing them.. usually for free.

moral of story, i love when my sg frens send me stuff!!! hah!
i was going to post a pic of myself.. but i have allergies and my eyes are kinda puffy so i feel all yucky.
youll have to take my word for my hair being pretty fuckin tits.

so my friend sent me some pics from when we fooled around.

theyre like REALLY graphic. so i will post probably the most personal picture ive ever shown the internet. that is, until photobucket tears that shit down.

SERIOUSLY.. not for the faint of heart.

hah!