la

at the bare minimum i'm annoyed.

at least i'm feeling like things might as well be hopeless because their degree of wrongness is too outstanding.

you know, those of us in our 20's will probably be considered lucky if we can find a job that pays $1000 a month. you know- you can't live on that without help.

(and don't even think about the college loan debt)

practically being forced to move in with out boyfriends or girlfriends (if we've managed to keep them) and selling off half our belongings just to keep the debt collectors at bay.

i know- my art is secondary. producing my own work could be good enough for me. but practicality of it all is that i need a place to be, and a role to fill.

i've been working in the ceramic studio taking in a mere $7.15 an hour not to exceed 20hours a week at campus because the current studio assistant manager will be leaving soon. my thought was to learn as much as i could now- so that when she finally graduates I can take the position. or at least, have some actually qualifications to make me a valid candidate and well have established a relationship with the professor who would essentially do the hiring. (i can't even go into the fact that this woman should have graduated a year ago and that the only reason she is now is because i charged her obscene amounts for her owed assignments.)

on the other hand, i've been splitting this 20hours a week with the main art studio on campus and I've planted the idea in my studio manager's head that he is the only person in the art dept. without a faculty member dedicating 20 hours a week in addition to the 20 hours they are allowed for work study. (even our tiny lil photography lab has a 20 hour a week staffer.) this would at least get me to earning $200 a week, making me $200 short of the $1000 goal. but- between my ceramic and crochet work that I am always up to- and paintings by commission i'd like to think i'd be able to make another $200 a month selling my work. I have, after all been really really wanting to get an etsy up online already!

i woke up at 7:30 like i should have, but was depressed and closed my eyes to awake again at 9:30 when my Dry Point and Etching class started. the class, hasn't really taught me much of anything and the professor doesn't add anything to the whole experience. i've made an average of 20 more prints than anyone else, he said on the second day of class that i'd get an A and not to give it another thought. but, girls with some 5-8 prints were told they got an A on midterm as well. granted semester ends on the 18th- hence my unemployment.

i'm thinking about putting up an add on craig's list or somewhere to see if any artists are looking for an assistant in the Long Island to NYC area.

if you are in any position to help me i'll commission a piece of artwork for you in exchange for the lead and hiring.

I am Laura and can be contacted via LauraLynnA@gmail.com
(i'm too poor to have a website since i dont' know the programs and prompts to make it myself...)

*though if i really do look to go a while without a job I might be so motivated to teach myself....

here are some glorious pictures of one of my main passions....


a friend of mine had a quotation on her Aim for the longest.... it read

"The worst thing that being an artist could do would be to make you slightly unhappy most of the time"

i look forwards to not thinking that way anymore. i guess to know passion, is to understand and respect pain.

love where i can. i'll find hope.