l1vingdeadgurl

Coincidence of today

-Reading a really great book called "The Psychopath Test: A journey through the madness"
-Having the sudden (or maybe not so sudden realization) that you married someone who is likely psychopathic, that being he screamed and yelled about the missing remote (which of course is MY fault because what the hell? Everything is my fault) then accuses you of throwing away an old newspaper which was in the exact place it was left, only he remembered incorrectly and now you are a million odd derogatory names because he has some mental issue.

I think I've said this before but it really bugs me. You ever have a moment where you wonder why YOU are the one who is heavily medicated for being unstable, but you can't remember exactly what it was that made you "unstable", yet the person you live with/married seems to be extremely unstable and in need of medication? Especially with a history of mental illness in their family?

Maybe I'm just weak, lazy, self-hating or just feel I can't do better. Maybe I am mentally ill because I tolerate the situation with a smile and nod.

And my Mitch, my love, my thread, you can do better too. We both can.

Tell me the truth, do I look sick?