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Sunday Jul 10, 2011

Jul 10, 2011
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at the risk of sounding all whiny and shit here goes

I am so fucking beyond done with people, men in particular. I clearly have alot less self esteem than I initially thought because I continually let the same guys take advantage of me over and over again and take it with a smile on my face.

I am getting a divorce
I am leaving
I got a new car that will help me leave
I need to go to rehab again but refuse because fuck it

Realization number 1

Life really sucks

Realization number 2

Happiness is just the absence of something shitty

Realization number 3

I think I will concentrate on women from now on

Realization number 4

Stone doesn't love me and never will and somehow I can't get over that

Realization number 5

I think about hurting people alot more than I should

Realization number 6

Death is a warm welcome

Hitting the road, if you care to contact me, you know my digits

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