l1vingdeadgurl

People are strange..... or maybe it's just me who's strange
these days anyway.

I go from feeling this


Then sometimes this


(I closely resemble that purple hippo oddly enough)

but mostly I just think about him and the various reasons why he doesn't love me. I'm one of these people that need to be loved
Think:



Plus 1 for the day?
Finished the last bit of assignments for school
Police Check came back and no criminal record (phew)
Getting a major fire for finishing my book (finally)
Car is fixed and no longer resembles this



I think being around miserable people is bringing me down. People lose sight of what matters and spazz out over the smallest things.

Think this:
HUBBY: #%&@ happened to my new truck?
Me: My new meds are messing me up and I kind of backed into something but good news is I'm ok and it's only a small dent (hopeful etched with fear face on)
HUBBY: WTF is wrong with you, youre a junky fuck up blah blah blah

You don't want to hear the rest. It really was a small dent.

Maybe new job tomorrow?
We shall see.