Login
Forgot Password?

OR

Login with Google Login with Twitter Login with Facebook
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • SuicideGirls
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
Vital Stats

l1vingdeadgurl

Still looking

Member Since 2008

Followers 337 Following 303

  • Everything
  • Photos
  • Video
  • Blogs
  • Groups
  • From Others

Sunday Nov 07, 2010

Nov 7, 2010
0
  • Facebook
  • Tweet
  • Email
Ever since Simon passed, I've been finding myself writing him letters. Mostly apologetic nonsense, self loathing my specialty, but sometimes I just write about my day, like in the old days when I would relive every detail of my day to him. He would mostly laugh, sometimes roll his eyes but always make me feel heard. I don't really know why I write to him, it's not like he is going to respond, but I never got to tell him directly how much I loved him, and needed him. My saving grace was being close to his best friend and knowing he got the message anyway. Maybe part of it is guilt, for the passionate love/hate relationship we had, a toxic addiction to one another is what the others called it. So it's crazy I know, but I think somehow he might know I write to him and realize the significant impact he had on my life.
Do you ever write letters you'll never send?
losty:
Yes wrote those letters and often had imaginary conversations too. After a few years, i didn't need to talk to air anymore.
Nov 7, 2010

More Blogs

  • 04.23.11
    2

    Saturday Apr 23, 2011

    Name change. Really spelled Brnach, but SG doesn't allow those charac…
  • 04.21.11
    1

    Thursday Apr 21, 2011

    This is seriously the best.song.ever. Don't even think about disputi…
  • 04.14.11
    1

    Thursday Apr 14, 2011

    I dont know what to do with free time anymore. Boredom has become a m…
  • 04.10.11
    0

    Sunday Apr 10, 2011

    Sorry no writing lately. Not that it is anything more interesting tha…
  • 03.29.11
    2

    Tuesday Mar 29, 2011

    Sometimes, you get tired of fucking up, tired of losing, tired of usi…
  • 03.16.11
    4

    Wednesday Mar 16, 2011

    Hey everyone! My neighborhood's been in the news as of late. For ret…
  • 03.14.11
    1

    Monday Mar 14, 2011

    Sometimes life holds some serious surprises. Probably premature, bu…
  • 03.12.11
    0

    Saturday Mar 12, 2011

    'Number fourthe girl who died on the table The girl with golden hair…
  • 03.08.11
    5

    Tuesday Mar 08, 2011

    People are strange..... or maybe it's just me who's strange these day…
  • 03.06.11
    1

    Sunday Mar 06, 2011

    Sometimes things are bad and you know it is, so very fucking bad but …

We at SuicideGirls have been celebrating alternative pin-up girls for:

23
years
8
months
25
days
  • 5,509,826 fans
  • 41,393 fans
  • 10,327,617 followers
  • 4,593 SuicideGirls
  • 1,123,049 followers
  • 14,912,246 photos
  • 321,315 followers
  • 61,371,591 comments
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
  • Help
  • About
  • Press
  • LIVE

Legal/Tos | DMCA | Privacy Policy | 18 U.S.C. 2257 Record-Keeping Requirements Compliance Statement | Contact Us | Vendo Payment Support
©SuicideGirls 2001-2025

Press enter to search
Fast Hi-res

Click here to join & see it all...

Crop your photo