l1vingdeadgurl

I watched this movie last night I kind of connected with and everyone is going to think I am strange to have done so. The movie was called Tenderness. Its about a teenage girl who is obsessed with a young man who is a psychopath. Once he is released from prison she finds him and works her way into his life, eventually going on a road trip with him. I have spent some time looking up the definition of "psychopath" because I have been deathly afraid I fit into that technical catagory. Mostly for my lack of empathy and the ability to emulate a different persona when it suits the situation.

Psychopathy is a personality disorder characterized by an abnormal lack of empathy combined with strongly amoral conduct, masked by an ability to appear outwardly normal. Neither psychopathy, nor the similar concept of sociopathy, are nowadays defined in international diagnostic manuals, which instead describe a category of antisocial/dissocial personality disorder.



I dont really have frequent feelings or needs to harm others, but there are times when the only thing that would make you feel better is a good fight. I guess thats where fight club came from, maybe I should join one.

My most recent predicament? The constant need for greener pastures. I have switched jobs more times than I can count and instead of each one getting better they have all gotten progressively worse, and its like an endless circle. Now I cant even find a job. Sure I have a commission only job and my own side business but neither one comes with benefits or is enough to pay bills on my own. And I need to be on my own.
I am babbling nonsense again, must be the meds.
So tell me if you are going to SG East Gala. This year I want to meet ALL of you, and I plan on staying downtown so I dont need to leave early...