l1vingdeadgurl

So I have spent a good part of the morning crying. Over everything and anything in particular.Mostly because I have been feeling severely rejected by the people I care about most. In fact I think I have been rejected my whole life. My husband says things work out the way they should in the end. I called him a fucking liar and that the whole world just settles for whats comfortable. Love doesnt exist, its been replaced by the comfort of knowing you have a wife/husband waiting for you at home. That OMG you arent the third wheel. I say fuck this whole theory and I just want to be alone and fuck whoever I want when I want and thats it. These last weeks have not been kind to me and I cannot get an appointment with my psychiatrist for a week or so. The benzos are running out and they wont refill for at least another 3 weeks. My wrists are still sore from `the incident`and I am personally running on empty. SOOOO enough complaining for now. As yoda says `there is only do or not do. there is no try.


In the meantime here are some pictures of the girls at the party...they are so adorable...

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