I stand in the empty
Space of this desolute place
The airfield we spoke about
Dead birds that once flew graceful
Elegant and poised
You can hear yourself think here
I can hear my eyelids blink here
I hold your hand here
Stare at your stunning eyes here
Feel at home with you here
I have had a major case of the downs lately....
I wish I knew why. Its hard when everyone wants to know why and they expect the answer to be black or white, when I live in the gray area of life. Things are tensive at home to say the least and I just need to get away so not to be so suffocated. My mind is disagreeing with my heart and its making for some sleepless nights and looong days. I am lucky in some ways to have my friend _solipsist_ who manages to say something that makes perfect sense, and therefore bring me back down to earth.
I have absolutely no plans for this weekend, except to maybe get drunk and stoned. I managed to get so messed up last night I dont remember anything...almost like I had taken roofies. Maybe I did
I think it boils down to me feeling emotionally lonely. Of course you laugh, because I am surrounded by people every day. How the fuck could I be lonely?
Space of this desolute place
The airfield we spoke about
Dead birds that once flew graceful
Elegant and poised
You can hear yourself think here
I can hear my eyelids blink here
I hold your hand here
Stare at your stunning eyes here
Feel at home with you here
I have had a major case of the downs lately....
I wish I knew why. Its hard when everyone wants to know why and they expect the answer to be black or white, when I live in the gray area of life. Things are tensive at home to say the least and I just need to get away so not to be so suffocated. My mind is disagreeing with my heart and its making for some sleepless nights and looong days. I am lucky in some ways to have my friend _solipsist_ who manages to say something that makes perfect sense, and therefore bring me back down to earth.
I have absolutely no plans for this weekend, except to maybe get drunk and stoned. I managed to get so messed up last night I dont remember anything...almost like I had taken roofies. Maybe I did
I think it boils down to me feeling emotionally lonely. Of course you laugh, because I am surrounded by people every day. How the fuck could I be lonely?
There is a pleasure in the pathless woods,
There is a rapture on the lonely shore,
There is society, where none intrudes,
By the deep sea, and music in its roar:
I love not man the less, but Nature more.
Don't worry I will be back to bubbly Harlequinne tomorrow. Its been a rough couple of days..
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she told me she really likes that book because she feels for Bella so much, i had to resist telling her, that i suffered a lot more than Bella, back when she broke up with me, but i don't want to make her feel guilty about it. she knows it was tough for me and she knows a bit about it, but i don't think she has any idea how serious or extreme it was.
wow, look at me ranting... sorry XD
take care!! *hugs*
better at night, I'm sure
a million ghost stories.....