l1vingdeadgurl

Today is seriously cold.... like I actually had to put on a hat and mittens to get out to the car cold. I need some sun.....desperately.
So someone who I have a huge crush on and was being a total jerk and ignoring me for absolutely no reason, has decided to contact me again. I am on the fence about this. I am not attracted to many people, and it is usually the last person you would expect. Hence, hubby. Who is the exact polar opposite of me. Professional, highly intelligent and a University graduate. Untattooed, unpierced or modified in any way. So along comes Mr.Crush who is on my side of the universe, who says sweet things and makes me feel awesome about my not so perfect body. He has the most dreamy eyes that make me melt. I need him desperately and it drives me crazy. I have never had this feeling about ANYONE Then he just stops talking to me. Maybe it was his situation, maybe it was mine. I was crushed and devastated which rightfully pissed me off. No one deserves this reaction from me, especially him. BUt its there, strong and slowly tearing apart the shield I have carefully placed over my heart. I spent Christmas and New Years with friends and family and have pretty much gotten over Mr. Crush and could almost care less about him or what he does.
Then comes the little message. Just a litte "lets talk" kind of message. And I am back to square 1.