kyusss

Feeling overwhelmed, I've told pretty much everyone who needs to know that I'm a lesbian. So many days feeling anxious, waiting for that first look from each person. I know it's just shock, but I feel like I'm in a fishbowl right now.

This is the part where I kind of want to crawl in a hole and wait for it all to become just another part of life. Soon precious, soon.

Now I don't know if I feel ecstatic or depressed, yeah probably both. Underneath it all is that lonesome feeling, that emptiness I've had since I was a kid. Exciting times ahead (I hope). Probably more like awkward times first though...why do I have to be so awkward around pretty girls???