well hello dear readers...its 7:16 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again...my sleep schedule is fucked once again...it wouldnt be so bad but i havent accomplised a damn thing tonight accept for putting a more up to date pic of what i look like in my folder....eiw at your own risk 
well it seems im still dwelling on the thoughts of last night...and let me tell you thats helping....can you smell the sarcasim there? i knew that you could...also i have been sitting here thinking about all the new realtionships i have been reading on here AND the fact that everytime i turn the fuck around i keep seeing people into each other all over the place...its starting to sicken me...im tired of not having some kind of happiness in my life...now dont get me wrong...i am glad for all the people that have found there other halves...just tired of getting shot down and cast aside...awhile back a couple of people asked me why i go out with the girls i go out with...and that question has haunted me ever since that day...and the only answer i can come up with is that we had sex, normally thats how i meet chicks, in a bar...we have drinks, we talk, then at the end of the night we either sleep together or get real damn close...now when i tried to change this there was more disaster than when i just slept with chicks...what im talking about is trying to take it slow and get to know the person before we do naughty things...that has only happened like 3 times...lol funny thing is is that it was that last 3 girls i had a relationship with...sorry people im rambling...i guess the point im trying to make is that i have been thinking about the "why do i date the girls i do" question off and on for about a month and a half now and i cant come up with a good answer...everytime i try to change my dating habits and go after the "good girl" it never works out...it kind of reminds me of the scene in x-men 2 (yes i am going there) when wolverine talks to jean about them getting together and she tells wolvie that "girls flirt with the bad guy...but they go home with the good guy." i know its a gay parallel but it still fits me...but it took me this fucking long to find out the little i know about me and im not changing that...and i dont think i should..other than the drinking which i need to be stopping but anyways...so lets see if i can tie up all these rambling thoughts here..guess what im saying is that why in the fuck can't i have a great relationship huh? to quote a great and wise man "When the fuck am i going to see the sail boat!!!" you know i have asked people this question many times and i keep getting this answer "its the town you live in." which does have something to do with it but fuck i look around and i see one ex finding hers, a friend of mine who has the "anti girl game" has a great girl now...so this town ,which does suck ass, is not all bad im guessing...wow i read over this and it is nothing but random thoughts about one thing....just wish i could have that feeling agian...you know the one...where your at work and out of nowhere they pop into your mind and a big smile spreads across your face and it perks up your day, and you cant wait to see them...yeah...i miss that...i just want my mary jane back.
no pop quiz for today class...just read chapters 4-6 for next time...
end transmission - kyshak
well it seems im still dwelling on the thoughts of last night...and let me tell you thats helping....can you smell the sarcasim there? i knew that you could...also i have been sitting here thinking about all the new realtionships i have been reading on here AND the fact that everytime i turn the fuck around i keep seeing people into each other all over the place...its starting to sicken me...im tired of not having some kind of happiness in my life...now dont get me wrong...i am glad for all the people that have found there other halves...just tired of getting shot down and cast aside...awhile back a couple of people asked me why i go out with the girls i go out with...and that question has haunted me ever since that day...and the only answer i can come up with is that we had sex, normally thats how i meet chicks, in a bar...we have drinks, we talk, then at the end of the night we either sleep together or get real damn close...now when i tried to change this there was more disaster than when i just slept with chicks...what im talking about is trying to take it slow and get to know the person before we do naughty things...that has only happened like 3 times...lol funny thing is is that it was that last 3 girls i had a relationship with...sorry people im rambling...i guess the point im trying to make is that i have been thinking about the "why do i date the girls i do" question off and on for about a month and a half now and i cant come up with a good answer...everytime i try to change my dating habits and go after the "good girl" it never works out...it kind of reminds me of the scene in x-men 2 (yes i am going there) when wolverine talks to jean about them getting together and she tells wolvie that "girls flirt with the bad guy...but they go home with the good guy." i know its a gay parallel but it still fits me...but it took me this fucking long to find out the little i know about me and im not changing that...and i dont think i should..other than the drinking which i need to be stopping but anyways...so lets see if i can tie up all these rambling thoughts here..guess what im saying is that why in the fuck can't i have a great relationship huh? to quote a great and wise man "When the fuck am i going to see the sail boat!!!" you know i have asked people this question many times and i keep getting this answer "its the town you live in." which does have something to do with it but fuck i look around and i see one ex finding hers, a friend of mine who has the "anti girl game" has a great girl now...so this town ,which does suck ass, is not all bad im guessing...wow i read over this and it is nothing but random thoughts about one thing....just wish i could have that feeling agian...you know the one...where your at work and out of nowhere they pop into your mind and a big smile spreads across your face and it perks up your day, and you cant wait to see them...yeah...i miss that...i just want my mary jane back.
no pop quiz for today class...just read chapters 4-6 for next time...
end transmission - kyshak
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gypsyphoenix:
just random, but i love that new pic that you put up. (had to be said)
user28480482:
If you are awake, get on IM! I need ya!