Well it's monday so you all know what taht means UPDATE TIME....lets see whats has been up with me....ummmm not a whole lot actually...lol...just been working my ass off and trying to not itch my damn tattoo....can't wait till wed so i can go see some hottie SG girls writhing around naked to my enjoyment
well all i will add more if i can think of anything...aqua teen is about to come on
will add questions later after ATHF
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ok dont watching ATHF, now back to the musings of me...in otherwards bullshit i need to get off of my chest...saturday night at worked sucked...as can be expected when i work with a complete friggin moron...but anyways work finally ended and i decided to go out to have a few woohoo works over drinks...and that started the downward spiral that has made me make a desion that is shaken me to the core of my being...the only good thing that did happen was that i got a phone number from a really cute blonde named jenny...but i dont think she will call back...anyways back to what i was getting to...and i know i have ranted about this many times on here, but unfortunatly i dont think i can control it any longer...i am referring to my drinking habits...and the fact that i need to stop...totally...before i kill myself or worse kill somebody else...after my night of trying to drink every beer in anderson, i stopped at jack in the box to get some food to take to a friends house...well i get there and she pulls up PISSED...apparently i had called her looking for a ride home, and i took off anyways, so she was worried and pissed that i drove home hammerd from anderson...and in the ensuing fight that occurred afterwards i had aparently threatend one of my friends...who was only doing his job...being a caring friend to me by not letting drive home....so i have been thinking about this for 2 days...and the only conclusion i can come to...i need help...serious help...of the professional nature...but i cant bring myslef to make the call, because in doing so im really admiting that i do have a problem that i cant control...which in turns makes me think, well maybe everything i have ever done every desion i have made is wrong...this is scaring the hell out of me...but i am sure that i cant drink anymore...just for the fact that i dont know if i could live with myself if i ever hurt anybody that i cared about...seeing as i dont have a lot of people that like me, i tend to care a lot for the people that do put up with my dumbass antics...so thats whats been going on with me...sorry to turn all morose and bummer like...just im at the end of my rope...and i dont want to let go...sorry all no questions for this update...im off to bed night all


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ok dont watching ATHF, now back to the musings of me...in otherwards bullshit i need to get off of my chest...saturday night at worked sucked...as can be expected when i work with a complete friggin moron...but anyways work finally ended and i decided to go out to have a few woohoo works over drinks...and that started the downward spiral that has made me make a desion that is shaken me to the core of my being...the only good thing that did happen was that i got a phone number from a really cute blonde named jenny...but i dont think she will call back...anyways back to what i was getting to...and i know i have ranted about this many times on here, but unfortunatly i dont think i can control it any longer...i am referring to my drinking habits...and the fact that i need to stop...totally...before i kill myself or worse kill somebody else...after my night of trying to drink every beer in anderson, i stopped at jack in the box to get some food to take to a friends house...well i get there and she pulls up PISSED...apparently i had called her looking for a ride home, and i took off anyways, so she was worried and pissed that i drove home hammerd from anderson...and in the ensuing fight that occurred afterwards i had aparently threatend one of my friends...who was only doing his job...being a caring friend to me by not letting drive home....so i have been thinking about this for 2 days...and the only conclusion i can come to...i need help...serious help...of the professional nature...but i cant bring myslef to make the call, because in doing so im really admiting that i do have a problem that i cant control...which in turns makes me think, well maybe everything i have ever done every desion i have made is wrong...this is scaring the hell out of me...but i am sure that i cant drink anymore...just for the fact that i dont know if i could live with myself if i ever hurt anybody that i cared about...seeing as i dont have a lot of people that like me, i tend to care a lot for the people that do put up with my dumbass antics...so thats whats been going on with me...sorry to turn all morose and bummer like...just im at the end of my rope...and i dont want to let go...sorry all no questions for this update...im off to bed night all
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