sorry for such a long break in updating but i have been super busy....well lets see how did the last two days go?....well it has been an emtoinal rollercoaster to say the least..yesterday was great, good day at work and flirting with the waitstaff,got some really good news on a job opportuinty, and i came home to cal my ex to tell her...and thats where my good mood started to fall to shit....i ran into a friend of mine that is a cop, well it turns out she had been looking for me because one of her friends is looking for an artist to help on a new cartoon....well it turns out that the guy puts out HARVEY FUCKING BIRDMAN on adult swim!!!and she said if if he wants me that i would have to move to atlanta to work there...fan"fucking "tasitc!!! i love atlanta and its a hell of a lot better than this one horse town....so on the way home i'm floating on clouds...funny thing was that i was already wanting to try for adult swim with my own cartoon..so i thinking i'm the shit..right?...well then i call my ex to tell her and to put it lightly she acts like i just told her i found a five dollar bill in the parking lot...my ego plumets at this point....and after i get off the phone with her i'm thinking"what the fuck? this is the greatest thing that is happening to me in the world. and she gives me this shit? i'm done with her...fuck her...she doesn't want me then her lose...i know i'm a good guy and mildly cute...so im done..screw her."so i call my other ex that im still really good friends with and she goes nuts over what i tell her...what i wanted the other one to do...well she comes over ...well we get to talking and i well...i had some great congrats sex...now it's been since a week before halloween since i had some so i was trilled...but the bad thing is the whole time i'm thinking of my current ex...and how me and her will never share this...and i start getting really sad again...so i wake up today and i'm feeling reat again...day goes great...waitstaff is flirting with me and i'm loving it..so after work i decide im going to go downtown and get a beer and maybe have some fun...well as soon as i get downtown get a beer and sit down to lisen to the band i start thinking about HER again...my current ex...and i start to get really pissed off..not at her just at the fact that i did nothing wrong!!...i treated her like a fucking queen...if she needed something i got it...for gads sake i was the best boyfriend ever to her...the only thing i can think of was that i can't stand her best friend...and i didnt like his ass before i ever meet her...well that and the fact that i threw his lanky little ass up against the ice machine at work...but it had nothing to do with her...so im sitting here just pissed and missing the one thing good thing that ever happen to me...i have been in a good mood lately but i think it has been a front and i didn't even know it...i swear im going to be alone for the rest of my life...i know she is doesnt want a serious relationship right now but its that little voice in my head thats saying "shes going to find someone and he is going to treat her like shit." and that drives me FUCKING nuts!! Dman i miss her...i know i can talk to her now...as friends...but it's just not the same...*sigh* i just want to kiss her again and know that she wants to kiss me back...god i thought i had moved past this....guess i just put it in the place where i put all my spite and anger...well i guess it's on to the questions.
1) if you had the chance would you be on a reality show?
2) What is the best food?
3) How can one person destroy your spirit this much?
end transmission - kyshak
1) if you had the chance would you be on a reality show?
2) What is the best food?
3) How can one person destroy your spirit this much?
end transmission - kyshak
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2) coconut curry
3) because you are not moving on.
1) You knew I was tired, you knew I was under a lot of deadline stress, and you knew I was feeling sick when you called me. You can't be mad at me if I didn't feel like screaming out congratulations and jumping up and down to you in the library either. I was going to call you today and give you a more enthusiastic response (and I AM happy for you), but seeing as I'm guilty of underappreciating you as a boyfriend as well (and of course that's the reason we broke up-- not all the inconsequential little things that I discussed with you), it's probably not going to do any good.
2) All bets are definitely off? Did you reeeeeeeeeally think I wanted to hear about you fucking Melissa during my number one stress week of the whole school year? Please say a lot of dismissing shit about me, and then tell me about fucking your ex. Really. Remember our little discussion about how you really didn't even want to know about me meeting someone else? I mean, it's totally cool if you want to tell me all about screwing your ex, but kindly use a little more tact next time.