AHHHHHHHHH.....now that the big deep breath has been let out lets get on with this here update....
So after work the other day i went and took myself to the bookstore and bought The Art of Happiness by his Holiness the Dalai Lama....and before i go into that let me tell you how weak i am for coffee...
so i try to use the discount card for my book right but the lady tells me its expired and would i like to renew it, so i ask how much and she tells me 10 bucks. now i really dont want this thing seeing as how ill be leaving in a couple of months and probably wont have money to buy books of the casual reading kind...so she sees me waivering on the idea and then she says let me sweeten the deal for you and she whipes out a coupon books for Joe Muggs the coffee shop in the bookstore....and she produces a coupon for free coffee...i sigh and tell her to ring it up....now how bad is that...my jew nature is so bad i paid 7 dollars for a free cup of coffee....
ok now back to my story...i came home with my free 7 dollar cup of coffee and made a nice place to sit and read, the more o thoguht about this book the more a little voice in my head kept telling me that i really wont get into all the teachings and this is a waste of time....but as i say this to myself i know it is a lie....as i sit and start to read the introduction i feel tears start to well up and is was a downpour from there...i havent really cried since mel left me...i have sobbed but never a tear was shed till the other day while i was reading....and boy did i cry, i coulndt even read for a bit because of it...i realeased a lot of pent up saddness the other day....it was a good thing i bought this book, as i read it i realized how mel got so much from this book and how the things he says correlate with the way out whole situation has been and to us as individuals as well...and as i read more of his teachings and the way of Buddhism....i thought to myself i already thought this way...i just needed some guidance...its funny since i have opened my heart to accept that there might be a higher being i have been looking for a realigion that i thought would be comparable to my way of thinking....dont be a bastard, try to help someone in need out and karma...they have been here for a long time and i feel foolish to just now find them...but at least i did find them.
after i read the first part i sat down with a peice of paper and wrote down everything that made me feel happiness, negative thoughts and pleasure....im not going to explain all of it but you really should go and pick up a copy of this book....afterwards i sat and just thoguht about everything that is leading me to happiness and smiled...really smiled for the first time in a looooooong time....i also had some questions about the whole pleasure and happiness stuff so i called mel to ask her to explain it a bit better...in which we ended up having one of the most honest and most adult...hell it was the best conversation we ever had i think....i finally feel like me and mel are in a great place....we can talk to each other and there are no lingering questions after the phone call...and i dont feel afriad anymore to just ask her something...in ways i feel closer to her now...which is a good thing seeing as how i think we both feel that we can still have the greatest thing in our realtionship...friendship... it was always the best thing about us, our friendship...i dont know i woke up today just feeling good, and hopeful......i can honestly say i feel good finally... i still have worries but they are more of the moving nature and commonplace for something like that, my car, money stuff like that, stuff that will hopefully work itself out....thank you Dalai Lama, thank you
So after work the other day i went and took myself to the bookstore and bought The Art of Happiness by his Holiness the Dalai Lama....and before i go into that let me tell you how weak i am for coffee...
so i try to use the discount card for my book right but the lady tells me its expired and would i like to renew it, so i ask how much and she tells me 10 bucks. now i really dont want this thing seeing as how ill be leaving in a couple of months and probably wont have money to buy books of the casual reading kind...so she sees me waivering on the idea and then she says let me sweeten the deal for you and she whipes out a coupon books for Joe Muggs the coffee shop in the bookstore....and she produces a coupon for free coffee...i sigh and tell her to ring it up....now how bad is that...my jew nature is so bad i paid 7 dollars for a free cup of coffee....
ok now back to my story...i came home with my free 7 dollar cup of coffee and made a nice place to sit and read, the more o thoguht about this book the more a little voice in my head kept telling me that i really wont get into all the teachings and this is a waste of time....but as i say this to myself i know it is a lie....as i sit and start to read the introduction i feel tears start to well up and is was a downpour from there...i havent really cried since mel left me...i have sobbed but never a tear was shed till the other day while i was reading....and boy did i cry, i coulndt even read for a bit because of it...i realeased a lot of pent up saddness the other day....it was a good thing i bought this book, as i read it i realized how mel got so much from this book and how the things he says correlate with the way out whole situation has been and to us as individuals as well...and as i read more of his teachings and the way of Buddhism....i thought to myself i already thought this way...i just needed some guidance...its funny since i have opened my heart to accept that there might be a higher being i have been looking for a realigion that i thought would be comparable to my way of thinking....dont be a bastard, try to help someone in need out and karma...they have been here for a long time and i feel foolish to just now find them...but at least i did find them.
after i read the first part i sat down with a peice of paper and wrote down everything that made me feel happiness, negative thoughts and pleasure....im not going to explain all of it but you really should go and pick up a copy of this book....afterwards i sat and just thoguht about everything that is leading me to happiness and smiled...really smiled for the first time in a looooooong time....i also had some questions about the whole pleasure and happiness stuff so i called mel to ask her to explain it a bit better...in which we ended up having one of the most honest and most adult...hell it was the best conversation we ever had i think....i finally feel like me and mel are in a great place....we can talk to each other and there are no lingering questions after the phone call...and i dont feel afriad anymore to just ask her something...in ways i feel closer to her now...which is a good thing seeing as how i think we both feel that we can still have the greatest thing in our realtionship...friendship... it was always the best thing about us, our friendship...i dont know i woke up today just feeling good, and hopeful......i can honestly say i feel good finally... i still have worries but they are more of the moving nature and commonplace for something like that, my car, money stuff like that, stuff that will hopefully work itself out....thank you Dalai Lama, thank you
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I could only come up with damned sites on "Egg Donor" sites.
Good luck! There should be plenty of places to do that sort of thing and sorry dude, but a tow isn't fresh. Needs to be in a cup and "up to date."