kyloren_sith

So for those who fully read my blog posts I must sound like the most sad person in the world. I promise you that I'm really not and i'm truly a fun guy it's just lately something's been getting me down that I really need to get off my chest and I figure SG is the place to do it. So there is this girl that works at my gym that is just awesome. The thing is she's a huge geek like me. She loves Star Trek, AHS, Star Wars, Firefly, Video Games, etc. You name it she likes it. Well she's a super bubbly person and is really my type over all. Thing is she dates nothing but absolute assholes and people who treat her like crap. She just recently (according to my friend) broke up with her bf and they're now done for good. Well me and her get along great, we talk about the same things, we have common interests, we make each other laugh, we enjoy chatting to each other when she's working. Here's the thing I sort of think my princess is in another castle on this one. To put it in Firefly terms she dates Simon Tams not Captain Mals. Her now ex bf was a huge pretty boy I mean big time. Perfect body, porcelain face, pasty white hands, etc. Basically he was the real life walking version of Simon Tam and i'm everything but. I have harder hands and i'm a bigger guy. I'm built more like a captain than a doctor. I've been getting into shape and I think she's been looking (if you get my meaning) but the thing is I could just be imagining that simply because I like her. I ain't putting her on a pedestal or anything because she might not be that great but I really like her. Now here's the kicker and the cherry on top of this whole sundae. I don't have the time to date anyone......at all. Even if she did like me and wanted me the same way I would want her I just can't date her. My schooling is far to important and I can't slow down on classes now not when i'm so close to graduating college and getting my degrees and being able to go live my life. I sort of feel like Kaylee on this one (if you watch Firefly Kaylee throughout the show is basically in love with a person she can't have). It sort of sucks to be able to walk into the gym and instantly see her laugh at my jokes and see her smile this really sexy and cute smile (She seriously could be a SG she's that cute). It sucks because I know that I can't do anything, I can't be with her and truth is in 6 months or less she'll be with another Simon and i'll just be here waiting for my Inara Serra to come along. My friend who works with her sort of tries to build me up telling me that she may dig me but I know i ain't the kind of guy she wants. Anyhow yep that's my blog post for the day. Thanks for reading and sticking it out lol. :P