kyleomen

Ive been distant from everything lately. I cant tell if things are getting better or worse.

This girl that I am seeing has two very different sides to her. There is the girl that I talk to on the phone that seems kind, loving, and a total superficial bitch, which I adore. Then, there is the girl that I hang out with who seems to want nothing to do with me. I hate that two faced bullshit. Every time I try to converse about anything of a serious nature she shuts down. I cant deal with that! The only way anything gets solved in my world is with a serious conversation and some good old introspection. The entire situation is most confusing but I will give it time. I have the time to give. She does have a tendency to make me smile, a big goofy smile.

I find myself completely changing my opinion of someone based on my mind set and the world around me. Two weeks ago I couldnt wait to be rid of my roommate and his bullshit, and now I cant imagine a world without him. I try to run away from my problems but Ive realized that this only makes me weak. Fuck that! I need to deal with these issues head on if I ever wish to make progress.

I love my journal and I love everyone on this site. The people that Ive met through this site have been some of the most interesting and fun loving boys and girls that Ive ever come in contact with. Thumbs up!