Hey guys :)
first of all a happy new year to you all, i hope you all had a amazing christmas and celebrated new years with a bang. Im so glad i can say 2016 is over and done and move onto a new year.
last year was emotional, crazy, insane, great, out of control and awesome.
ill start with the shit, and end it on a high.
so my parents seperated after 15 years of marriage, which impacted us all pretty hard. it wasn't the seperation that hurt it was the way it happened, and it made me realise things from my childhood i never did until recently. I was in a terrible relationship beginning of the year that ended with lots of stress an responsibility on my part - taking care of a house alone - although it had its ups i mean, i could do whatever i wanted ;). my family fell apart a little when i visited england. My step dad had some health complications linked to the stress of everythig, which made things even harder. We've had to build back up our home since mum left which has been difficult and emotional, but were just over the worst of it.
I had so many good things happen;
1. I stuck to my weight loss goals and actually managed to reach the weight i wanted to. This alone is one of the most emotional journeys ive had. i was 80+ kilos and hated my body to a point i would wear t shirts at the beach, but then as i started to loose weight i became more and more comfortable and now i barely think about it - i dont think im at my exact idea of what i want to be at but im happy how i am at the moment so :)
2. My sister had her first baby, that means i became a aunty for the first time to a beautiful little lady. i couldn't be more thrilled too. shes got a infectious giggle and a beautiful little face.
3. I went back to england my home town!! i had a fucking awesome time. okay some things went wrong but i got to see some people i missed so so much, and it gave me the boost i needed. nothing felt better than hearing my own accent and eating the food i love the most and ofcourse seeing the people ive always known to see.
4. I met some amazing new people that have filled my life with so much positivity, love, happiness, crazziness!
my friendships with these ladies have flourished so much over 2016 and i cant wait for them to grow further in 2017.
as well as being lucky enough to be graced with all these beautiful friendships, i also had the pleasure to meet properly one of the sweetest guys alive, i know im speaking of all the good here but the bad as been bad and this guy made it possible to come out of the storm standing strong.
5. i feel like i found more of who i am this year. my counselling sessions have been ended, im on no meds, i feel like i can cope in most situations of life i didn't think was possible last year. I've learned how to manage my issues better. Manage my thoughts. I've become more counscious of things, more aware. and i've learnt the roots of all my issues - which was obviously very confronting but its given me a way forward. Im back into art, back outdoors, back smiling like i used to and it feels so good.
I had to differ my last semester of uni because of everything happening but will be going back in february. Works amazing as always.
2016, you've be a bitch, a saint, amazing, fucked up but unforgettable.
bring on next year, i can't wait to see what it brings.
love,
lillymaee xo
