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I just got the message from the model coordinator; My set was not accepted. That's such a shame! They didn't mention any reason why they didn't want it, so I have so many questions. Maybe the theme was a little too artsy fartsy, or worse yet, maybe I'm just not what they're looking for. I wish they gave me some clue, because it would be nice to know if there's any point in trying again. But right now I have no desire to try a third time. Two rejections are a pretty good indicator that I'm not SG material. I'm so sad because of all the time we put in it, and I'm so sorry for BareKroell (my photographer), I wasted his time.

So now I have to get over it. Funny, it's like I was dumped or something! I am surprised that I feel so hurt, I'm always so "in control" of everything, especially my feelings. So I just have to set my mind on another mode, and give up the SG-thing. But it's hard because I was SO focused on it.

Btw I decided not to put it up in the SCS thing, but maybe I'll post some pictures from it later.

I'm sad.