I know I said I just want to spread good vibes, but I can't continue to disappeare because of my mental health.
This whole pandemic situation, mostly because I live in Italy and suffer from severe anxiety, is killing me.
I thought I was getting finally better last month, but I've fallen again. And it's always the worst thing, when you were just thinking you almost got it. In fact, I was close to the finish line of therapy, but now I don't even know anymore...
It's funny, I never asked my doc if I'm clinically depressed or not, but she never said I wasn't either when we talked about some issues I had (symptoms just like depression). She says I have this energy inside, always fueling, and she can't understand how's that possible. I bend again and again so fucking much, but never break completely.
Lately tho I feel that energy drained just by being awake.
Of course having another set in MR is super cool and gives satisfaction, and all the comments you write have me smiling.. But something inside me isn't quite functioning...
I don't even know where I wanted to arrive with this "monologue", what's the message. 🙄
Have you ever felt like this yourself? (even if I really hope not)
@missy @rambo @eirenne @penny
