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I don't know what it is, but I am starting this day off in a bad mood. I don't really know why. I had a pretty good night. It wasn't everything I wanted it to be, but it was nice. I guess knowing I have to go back to work tonight isn't helping my disposition much.

I didn't have the best week, as it was. The weekend was okay, but Cheryl had to work the whole week through so I didn't get to see her much. I had one bad day where I just missed my grandfather all day, then that night someone wanted to start shit as soon as I walked in the door at work. I got paid Thursday, and I was broke by Friday. I've got to meet with my lawyer on the 5th, but first I have to figure out were I'm going to get the money to pay for court costs and a bond so we can get my grandfather's will settled.

Nothing I do seems to matter any more. Everything I've done to "improve" my life seems to be just one more headache I have to worry about. More and more everyday I want to abandon everything and just go live in some shack up in the mountains somewhere like my uncle did for ten years. I'm so sick of the constant grind and struggle necessary just to keep my head above the water. I feel like if I don't find some relief I'm just going to start looking for a place to shovel the blame and things will be downhill from there.

Hopefully a shower and breakfast will improve my mood. If not it will probably be a bad day, followed by a bad night, and filled out by a bad week.