kus

So I wait all week for my favorite class (guitaR) and I don't even go. I had an interview that day and I didn't bring my guitar, and I was gonna be like an hour late and I didnt want the teacher to have to go get me a guitar then I'd have to go tune it and I forgot my tuner.

But I realize I should have gone. I drove all the way there and turned around right at the last second.

It's like coming into chat. I wanted people to talk to me, but now that they do, I almost feel weird and scared to come into chat because it is difficult for me to deal with people and do the things people want you to do if they are going to like you.

People scare me. Friendship scares me. All my friends always fucked me up and talked shit about me. And if someones going to talk shit about me behind my back, as far as I'm concerned they aren't my friend. Unfortunately everyone talks shit. I think it's just something I have to deal with.

I mean if someone is going to talk shit, at least wait until I'm not standing a few feet away.