kus

so this is my eyeball, its in the sky and its shaped like a cloud. its crying a tear, a tear drop of blood. its almost like the eye is god's, or that illuminati eye.

then the tear is falling into some giant chasm, like to the underworld. hades! none shall pass the river styx!

and why is there a tear drop? because im SAD...
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So I am exploring Adobe Illustrator. I feel like a kid when I'm drawing. Just putting random shit on the paper and having fun.

Illustrator makes it real simple. Now I don't have to worry about having straight lines, or coloring inside the lines, or having the correct color, or being able to do complex shapes in a matter of seconds.

It originally started out...
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As much as my life is lonely and painful, I find some enjoyment in seeing other people live the lfie I wish I could have. No use being bitter about things.

My life is actually turning around myself. I guess things wouldn't be so bad if I just had something going on.

Not like I didn't try. Can't see what's going on in my head....
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The Misfits of Science, one of those quinticential (sp) shows of the 80s that probably never got out of Los Angeles and into syndication.

It was good shit, full of typical 80's actors. And a young Courtney Cox? Wtf!

If I could change the way I am, I would. I'm sure there's plenty of stuff we all want to change but can't. Like our lives were decided before we were even born.

I can't help that I grew up the way I did and ended up the way I am. I wish I could be different but I can't. I don't try very hard,...
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i wonder how long before i delete this string of blogs.

ok, so i got a 6 pack of guiness, and i want to play guitar and stuff or something.

fuck off, wait i want to be positive. the world doesnt hate me, the world doesnt hate me.

like, i like this video

meow

i guess what i look for are those brief moments in your life that you genuinely enjoy. why cant it always be like that? if it was it wouldnt be all that special i imagine. its not very special until you have it taken away.

cept you REALLY dont realize how bad it is until you start thinking you might never ever get any of...
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life is strange, why is the simple act of approaching someone and talking to them so insanely impossible for me to comprehend?

i think my life would be easier if i werent so shy!

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So i've been feeling really down lately, thinking I'll never make friends because I'm just uncapable of it. But then I thought I just need to keep trying. I thought...
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