kumquat

i sit here.
with a keyboard in my lap.

thinking.
wondering.
not being able to work has got me bored.
bored as hell.

it's no good to be bored.
because then, then i think too much.

over-analyze.
destroy.

thinking girls are dangerous girls.
haven't i learned that we're just supposed to be quiet?
seen not heard.

my nose is stuffy.

went downtown yesterday.
had hamburger mary's.
couldn't buy pink dye.
was extremely disappointed at that.
really.
really need new dye.
went for a lovely walk.

i want to go to secret garden and drink tasty tea.
and little mini sweet things.
curled up in their lovely chairs.
looking at the silly sheeps.
[yes, sheeps]

i basically just want out.
i want out of this apartment.
i want to see people.
i want to be loud.
and very quiet.
all at once.

contradictions are my favourite.