kumquat

it's six oh four in the morning.
i've been up since four.
i woke up because i couldn't breathe and was having nightmares.

felt like a big baby.
so i cried a little.
and then took some cough syrup.
mmm. wildberry.
why do they have to make it taste so god damn gross?

i have to go to the doctor today.
very unimpressed.
i've been off work since april nineteenth.
shiiit.

i have no money.
no surprises there.
but i have such plans!

who is going to hire me now?
i am chronically ill.
it's embarrassing.

boo-urns.

someone hold me.
take care of me.
tell me it will be okay?