kumbel

been a while. alot has happened. life without my dad has been strange, difficult, incredibly saddening, and eye-opening.

most of my concerns are with my mom, now. she's a strong woman, but it's a huge blow losing your partner of 46 years. enough to crush anyone. she's also limited with her arthritis and cardio health and finances, so it's not like she can just get away when she wants to. she has to rely on us to get her around. and we're all helping he with money as much as we can. i'm feeling a lot of guilt not being in london to help her more. i just can't shake it. i think about her from morning till night and it's affecting everything - work, friendships, and i've almost completely stopped all my personal projects.

it's not all woes, though. losing him has made me think more in the last while than i have in years. couldn't have come at a better time, because i was really going off track with my life. i'm remembering now what and who i really love and i'm concentrating on making those things the priority in my life. started with quitting working for a client that really made me unhappy. lost a good source of income, but the quality of my other work has increased without that frustration and stress. quality over quantity. that's where it needs to be for me, even if it gets difficult.

that's enough of my boring life for now. hope you are all well.
k