kudra

I'm feeling much better today.

I got paid so I took my favorite man to a sushi date. He even kissed me for it.

So this weekend marks an important date for me. A year ago tomorrow I told my husband I wanted a divorce.
I remember when we had been together just over a month and he had gone home for xmas and his flight home got screwed up. So the arilines offered to put him up in a hotel and get him back to Portland the next morning, or else fly him to Seattle that night. We just couldn't wait to see eachother so he choose to fly to Seattle and I drove up there and got him. I remember standing there waiting for him to step off the plane, and how good it felt when he did. I remember driving home and we couldn't keep our hands off of eachother a minute longer, so we pulled off of the freeway onto some country road and fucked in the back of the van. Aaaah, so in love.

And I remember now with each day that goes by how the best decision I ever made was to end it. I don't feel a thing for him, but I still have a slightly bitter taste in my mouth.

Does that sound cold hearted?? Well it is. He's the only boy I ever loved that I feel nothing but emptiness for now.

Tomorrow I will go out and have fun and drink to the fact that I'M ALONE. Something that usually bothers me...... but not this weekend