Wow. Been a long time since I've written anything here. But I'm back (not that anyone missed me really)! I tend to turn to this blog when my life is not turning out as I would hope it would be. 3 months ago my relationship of 3 years ended, so I've entered back into the undesirable status of 'single'.
As much as I am tempted to launch into an emo diatribe about what happened, and the sadness (and drinking) that I've gone through... I won't. I've just come to the conclusion that women are insane. At least the one's I'm attracted to, anyway. And the one's that aren't.. are involved with someone else. So the lesson learned from this is that attractive women that are sane are taken. Attractive women that are available are insane.
I was stupid enough to think, that online dating would be the way to go, however being a guy of awesome personality, but ultimately... average looks, has no chance in that world. I didn't have high expectations to begin with, and my goal for even signing up is to have someone that I can call and go have dinner with maybe once a week. Nothing more. I've literally sent messages to around 50 different women, receiving zero replies. And the reason is this. An above average looking woman (the kind of woman I've always dated) will receive 5-10 messages a day. As a result... they can be picky. And they don't even have time for a no-thank you.
It's not that I'm completely alone. I have great friends and I'm grateful for my them. They worry about me and do try to cheer me up. Even wanted to throw a party for me this Friday just to get me out of my funk. But I think it's just going to take time to get myself comfortable with being by myself before someone will be willing to date me. Which is ironic... When I don't want to be alone. I am. When I'm happy being alone is when it happens. FUCK!
I'm going to go cut off my ear now and send it to Gigi. LOL JK.
As much as I am tempted to launch into an emo diatribe about what happened, and the sadness (and drinking) that I've gone through... I won't. I've just come to the conclusion that women are insane. At least the one's I'm attracted to, anyway. And the one's that aren't.. are involved with someone else. So the lesson learned from this is that attractive women that are sane are taken. Attractive women that are available are insane.
I was stupid enough to think, that online dating would be the way to go, however being a guy of awesome personality, but ultimately... average looks, has no chance in that world. I didn't have high expectations to begin with, and my goal for even signing up is to have someone that I can call and go have dinner with maybe once a week. Nothing more. I've literally sent messages to around 50 different women, receiving zero replies. And the reason is this. An above average looking woman (the kind of woman I've always dated) will receive 5-10 messages a day. As a result... they can be picky. And they don't even have time for a no-thank you.
It's not that I'm completely alone. I have great friends and I'm grateful for my them. They worry about me and do try to cheer me up. Even wanted to throw a party for me this Friday just to get me out of my funk. But I think it's just going to take time to get myself comfortable with being by myself before someone will be willing to date me. Which is ironic... When I don't want to be alone. I am. When I'm happy being alone is when it happens. FUCK!
I'm going to go cut off my ear now and send it to Gigi. LOL JK.
3darknights:
Most women are insane, no doubt there. Sorry to hear about your break-up, that sucks. You still have your health though right? I never had much luck online dating either, I know how that feels. Hopefuly a little party is just what the doctor ordered, but if not, don't worry. It seems that loves normally finds us when we're not looking... Make sure you keep your ear on ice, in case you want it later!
kucera:
Ok... Covering my eyes... I'm not looking. :-)