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I appear to have neglected this again!

Right now I am waiting on a friend to call me so we can go down town for a drink. This is becoming a pretty frequent and bad habit lately. I probably should spend less money on consciousness-altering substances considering I am currently unemployed. I suppose I am just an idiot sometimes.

I've been feeling like a zombie these last few days! (I even ate some gummy brains and I still feel crappy!) I just don't want to get out of bed in the morning. I need to find a way to motivate myself! I have so much to get done!

I really need to get myself a job. Right now I am just taking one class (I thought I graduated, but oh no! Fucking UCSC . . . fucking psych department) and working in the lab (again!). I couldn't stop myself from going back to the lab. I am just volunteering for the grad I was working for before. I am training her new RAs as well as continuing to transcribe. I guess she put me in charge of her lab which is cool, but also really hard to deal with when I can't get a hold of her to figure out what she wants me to do with the newbies. I guess middle-management sucks. Anyway, in exchange for me volunteering to take on many, many hours of tedious transcription work my grad is helping me get my thesis (which I got an "A" on by the way!) ready to submit for publication! I don't want to jinx this so I won't say too much about it other than I am pretty excited as well as horrified by the amount of work ahead of me.

I live alone now which is the first time for me. I guess it's alright. I can be naked whenever I want. However, I now talk to myself which is a little weird. I wish I had someone to hang out with . . . and be nude . . . god, I am so fucking lonely in so many ways!

I've been single for kind of a while now and I thought it was swell to begin with, but now the swelling has gone down. I am mildly retarded when it comes to dealing with the other sex so I've been pretty alone since my break up. I fo sho don't want to go back to my ex (he is a good friend at least)!! I want something new. I don't even care how serious, I really just don't want to sleep alone all the time. Can't someone just wanna play with me? I swear I am a nice kid. Bleh.

So, I best get to work on my Halloween costume soon! I've decided to be a lumberjack! Hot, right? lol I am going to make a plaid corset to make it a little girly. I am pretty excited about it.

I am starting to get board of blogging. I think I'll go find something else to occupy myself with.
Toodles Noodles.