I feel like I am going crazy these last few days. I haven't been sleeping very well at all. I am not tired at night time and if I do make it to bed I dream all sorts of strange things and I wake up serveral times a night.
I had a dream the other night that really scared me. In the dream I was 9 months pregnant (I haven no idea how that happened or why I didnt notice until that point). I was so close to having the baby and I was terrified. I did not have Jean-Marc with me (I can only assume he is the father). My parents were there, but they didn't really seem to care too much. I was SO scared that it was going to hurt me. I wanted to have a C section, but I was worried it was too late (I don't know why, dream logic). I was just so scared about the pain. It was a really weird and I woke up holding my tummy. The thing that bothers me is that I have had this dream before. It was slightly different, but basically the same. Just me wandering around about to have a kid, trying to find someone to help me. Childbirth scares me for some reason.
I just had to throw away some strawberries my mom brought me. )= They were getting moldy. I just got them and they went bad so fast! Wie traurig.
I feel really alone these last few days. I am not sure why exactly. Maybe it's the weather change. I guess we are having what most people seem to call "nice" weather. I don't much like sun so I am sort of unhappy about the change. I just hope I feel better soon. I don't usually get much done when I am in a bad mood.
My 21st birthday is less than a week away! I think I am going to get my hair cut again when I go home for my bday this weekend. I also want to get the clear bar in my industrial changed to a metal one.
I wish it was summer break! I need a break from this place. Matt might visit me! Yay!
I had a dream the other night that really scared me. In the dream I was 9 months pregnant (I haven no idea how that happened or why I didnt notice until that point). I was so close to having the baby and I was terrified. I did not have Jean-Marc with me (I can only assume he is the father). My parents were there, but they didn't really seem to care too much. I was SO scared that it was going to hurt me. I wanted to have a C section, but I was worried it was too late (I don't know why, dream logic). I was just so scared about the pain. It was a really weird and I woke up holding my tummy. The thing that bothers me is that I have had this dream before. It was slightly different, but basically the same. Just me wandering around about to have a kid, trying to find someone to help me. Childbirth scares me for some reason.
I just had to throw away some strawberries my mom brought me. )= They were getting moldy. I just got them and they went bad so fast! Wie traurig.
I feel really alone these last few days. I am not sure why exactly. Maybe it's the weather change. I guess we are having what most people seem to call "nice" weather. I don't much like sun so I am sort of unhappy about the change. I just hope I feel better soon. I don't usually get much done when I am in a bad mood.
My 21st birthday is less than a week away! I think I am going to get my hair cut again when I go home for my bday this weekend. I also want to get the clear bar in my industrial changed to a metal one.
I wish it was summer break! I need a break from this place. Matt might visit me! Yay!
disposablehero:
what do you mean might visit you? i'll totally be there on wednesday. i need a break from this place too. we'll have shitty beer night finally. just let me know if ther is anything i should bring with me. talk to you soon. ciao bella.
kttron:
Yay!!! Matty is coming to visit!!