Alright, I know I'm late with this, but in the spirit of the New Year (which I don't necessarily believe in, mind you!) I will share with everyone my hopes and goals for the coming year.
1. Probably the most important, I want to get medically tested to see if there is any reason why my weight is out of control. For those who don't know, I am a plus sized woman. The irony is, I do not eat very much at all. Most of the time I won't intake more than 1000 calories a day, and yet steadily every year since I started puberty I probably put on 5 to 10 pounds. I used to excercise alot too, for a year in high school I excercised and dieted like there was no tomorrow, and the only results I gained were extreme muscle mass, and no weight loss at all. All of my family is morbidly obese, and I am getting up there myself. Up until now I have resisted, blaming on idle vanity the reasons why I am concerned about my physical appearance. But, the reality of the truth is starting to set in. I am now 26, I am getting older and soon my body may start to experience health problems because of this. Plus, I am at high risk for diabetes and heart problems, so now it has become medically important for me to seek a solution to something I feel I am not at fault for. So, this month, I am seeking to have my metabolism, my glands, and whatever else can cause such a problem tested so that I may know once and for all if it is a chemical problem, or something else entirely. I don't want to die because of this like so many in my family have, and I know if I keep myself from doing this I will be at risk.
Wow, that was emotional. Moving on.
2. I resolve to decide once and for all what the hell I am doing about school. I don't know if I want to return to art school, as I had problems there and don't want to acquire degree just so I can teach art and become a bitter, resentful artist who paints once a year and hates there students and takes their problems out on them. My teachers were all like this, you see. I don't want to be like that. One way or the other though, I have to decide. And then, joy, I have to inform my parents either way. This year I will get this done.
3. I vow I will know a woman's touch by the end of this year. It's been too long coming, and I have to let go of what I have known in the past to discover what I can be in the future, when it comes to the ladies anyway. What this translates to, for all of you at least, is that I have to get over my one painfully bitter experience with a woman I used to know and move on in life. So, if another woman is what it takes than another woman I must have. (Anyone wish to help me with this one?
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4. I will acquire funding for my human relationships project if I have to bend over backwards and kiss every foundations ass from here to mexico and back. I will get this off the ground and within a few years I will be able to share the results with the world. Oh my yes, it has to happen.
5. Finally, because I'm a nerd, I resolve to read every old book that has been sitting on my shelves, untouched, for more than 5 years. Just so you can all bug me to accomplish this, here is a list of what I need to read.
-All of the Anne Rice books that I haven't read yet that have been in my books since I was 16. This includes "The Feast of all Saints, Servant of the Bones, The Mummy, Taltos, Lasher, and the Witching Hour." Ho hum.
-"Portrait of a Lady" by Henry James... I am older now. I will either finish this book, or pitch it. One of the two.
-"The Hunchback of Notre Dame" by Victor Hugo. Seen several movies of it, had it since I was 13. Now that the language won't be as much of a barrier I intend to read it... even if it is melodramatic.
-The last 3 books in the "Oz" series by L. Frank Baum. I read 11 books already, and grew "Ozzed out". Now I need to finish them, and they are short, so I have no excuse.
-"Shogun" by James Clavell. Because my brother gave me his copy ages ago, and I still need to watch the four disc miniseries that has been sitting in my Netflix queue as well. Ah, 1000+ page books!
-And finally, the end of the "Wrinkle in Time" series as well, though I may have to reread the first few that I read when I was younger, to remind myself what the hell is going on.
That makes 17 books that have been on my shelves forever, including the rereads. I can do that, no problem. Right after I finish The mists of avalon, the confessions of an ugly stepsister, and Vanity Fair I will start in on this list. I will either see these books read, or banished forever from my shelves, I have been looking at them entirely too long.
No questions today... Just tell me what you think of my resolutions and tell me if you made any yourself.
1. Probably the most important, I want to get medically tested to see if there is any reason why my weight is out of control. For those who don't know, I am a plus sized woman. The irony is, I do not eat very much at all. Most of the time I won't intake more than 1000 calories a day, and yet steadily every year since I started puberty I probably put on 5 to 10 pounds. I used to excercise alot too, for a year in high school I excercised and dieted like there was no tomorrow, and the only results I gained were extreme muscle mass, and no weight loss at all. All of my family is morbidly obese, and I am getting up there myself. Up until now I have resisted, blaming on idle vanity the reasons why I am concerned about my physical appearance. But, the reality of the truth is starting to set in. I am now 26, I am getting older and soon my body may start to experience health problems because of this. Plus, I am at high risk for diabetes and heart problems, so now it has become medically important for me to seek a solution to something I feel I am not at fault for. So, this month, I am seeking to have my metabolism, my glands, and whatever else can cause such a problem tested so that I may know once and for all if it is a chemical problem, or something else entirely. I don't want to die because of this like so many in my family have, and I know if I keep myself from doing this I will be at risk.
Wow, that was emotional. Moving on.
2. I resolve to decide once and for all what the hell I am doing about school. I don't know if I want to return to art school, as I had problems there and don't want to acquire degree just so I can teach art and become a bitter, resentful artist who paints once a year and hates there students and takes their problems out on them. My teachers were all like this, you see. I don't want to be like that. One way or the other though, I have to decide. And then, joy, I have to inform my parents either way. This year I will get this done.
3. I vow I will know a woman's touch by the end of this year. It's been too long coming, and I have to let go of what I have known in the past to discover what I can be in the future, when it comes to the ladies anyway. What this translates to, for all of you at least, is that I have to get over my one painfully bitter experience with a woman I used to know and move on in life. So, if another woman is what it takes than another woman I must have. (Anyone wish to help me with this one?
)
4. I will acquire funding for my human relationships project if I have to bend over backwards and kiss every foundations ass from here to mexico and back. I will get this off the ground and within a few years I will be able to share the results with the world. Oh my yes, it has to happen.
5. Finally, because I'm a nerd, I resolve to read every old book that has been sitting on my shelves, untouched, for more than 5 years. Just so you can all bug me to accomplish this, here is a list of what I need to read.
-All of the Anne Rice books that I haven't read yet that have been in my books since I was 16. This includes "The Feast of all Saints, Servant of the Bones, The Mummy, Taltos, Lasher, and the Witching Hour." Ho hum.
-"Portrait of a Lady" by Henry James... I am older now. I will either finish this book, or pitch it. One of the two.
-"The Hunchback of Notre Dame" by Victor Hugo. Seen several movies of it, had it since I was 13. Now that the language won't be as much of a barrier I intend to read it... even if it is melodramatic.
-The last 3 books in the "Oz" series by L. Frank Baum. I read 11 books already, and grew "Ozzed out". Now I need to finish them, and they are short, so I have no excuse.
-"Shogun" by James Clavell. Because my brother gave me his copy ages ago, and I still need to watch the four disc miniseries that has been sitting in my Netflix queue as well. Ah, 1000+ page books!
-And finally, the end of the "Wrinkle in Time" series as well, though I may have to reread the first few that I read when I was younger, to remind myself what the hell is going on.
That makes 17 books that have been on my shelves forever, including the rereads. I can do that, no problem. Right after I finish The mists of avalon, the confessions of an ugly stepsister, and Vanity Fair I will start in on this list. I will either see these books read, or banished forever from my shelves, I have been looking at them entirely too long.
No questions today... Just tell me what you think of my resolutions and tell me if you made any yourself.
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