krys_____

So, I have a bizarre situation I just realized...heh, when don't I have a bizarre situation...beside the point... I really do think I am falling in love with someone.... someone close to me... someone who I cannot have... and that's the worst part of it.

Ok, I work with this girl... she's beautiful, and such a honest, sweet, astounding woman, and I can't have her... she has a boyfriend, scratch that, she has a fiancee, whom I know and love, whom I also work with, and did I mention I love him to death? He makes me laugh all day long... well, yeah, I'm falling in love with his future wife...

now, she doesn't help the situation, she flirts with me alot, we talk on end about my weird situations just for her to respond with things like "oh hon, you're so damn cute"... blah blah blah... well, it gets to me, and I know it does because in the back of my head I look at her with a big, blinking "Danger Ahead" sign above her head... every time she flirts with me, caresses me, I mentally say to myself "remember she just got engaged to _________".... and then I stop from responding... but it's getting very hard to be morally righteous, especially now that she's inviting me out for movie nights and the like... I just hung out at an event she was performing at and she was eying our table all night long, so much so all of my friends noticed it..."damn Krys, you're being scoped out" and all of that... now she and I have known each other for years, but we just started hanging out more when I started working where I do, but the flirting just keeps amping up, and on her end she probably is so secure she's not thinking about it...but on my end I am agonizing over things, worse I am agonizing over the fact that I may end up doing something to hurt her finacee, and I don't want that.

Ok, someone needs to cockblock me hard core (ha ha, made myself laugh)... but really, tell me things that will make me back off, not that I have done anything reprehensible yet, but it's getting to the point where even though I can control this, I am withering in the notion of doing so...

oh, and this song played when I was coming home, and it so much so felt right about the whole thing, so this song is for her tonight... enjoy.



"She Talks To Rainbows"

She's a little lost girl in her own little world
She looks so happy but she seems so sad
ah ah oh yea oh oh oh yea
She's a little lost girl in her own little world
I'd like to help her I'd like to try
ah ah oh yea oh oh oh yea

She talks to birds she talks to angels
she talks to trees she talks to bees
She don't talk to me
Talks to the rainbows and to the seas
she talks to the trees
She don't talk to me
Don't talk to me

You know she drives me outta my mind
You know she drives me outta my head

She talks to birds ...

She's a little lost girl in her own little world
She looks so happy but she seems so sad
ah ah oh yea oh oh oh yea
She's a little lost girl in her own little world
I'd like to help her I'd like to try
ah ah oh yea oh oh oh yea

She talks to birds she talks to angels
she talks to trees she talks to bees
She don't talk to me
Talks to the rainbows and to the seas
she talks to trees
She don't talk to me
Don't talk to me
She don't talk to me
Don't talk to me
She don't talk to me
Don't talk to me
She don't talk to me
Don't talk to me


-The Ramones