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I suddenly felt warm and comfortable as if I was in post coital bliss with the camera and tip toed to the window to get some fresh air. What a relief. After a NyQuil induced coma and chilly pins and needles rolling down my back all night, I thought Id might have to cancel my first shoot for SG. The morning of I slipped out of my hotel bedroom and into the shower as fluidly as I could pretending that I wasn't shivering. Quickly nerves and adrenaline started to take over. I finished my self pampering and rode over to the SG house. My expectations were nil as I only had an address and call time. As I was greeted at the gate by an SG cutie I felt as if crossing the threshold into the front garden was an indoctrination to a community I had long awaited. I'm shown into the front door and I feel as if I've been here before.. Then I realize.. Girls shoot a lot of sets here. The back ground and decor bring alive the sets of others settled into my subconscious. An old drugstore sign, a well weathered book case, the black cast iron staircase wrapping up to a phone booth, the white tiles in the restroom, and the sprinkling of Art Deco Spanish tiles through out. Into the back yard a new member of @blackheartburlesque shoots her first set amongst the back drop of this pool that's been committed to memory already. The dark underworld of Suicidegirls had awakened and it was surprisingly cheery. Laughter from the bedroom and the smell of marijuana pours out, one of the girls shows off her new braids.. A few other girls are speaking in Portuguese and making breakfast in the Kitchen.. And then a couple of more girls come in after a morning bike ride. *pinch* is this real life? How freaking adorable. @aeterna wraps up the other shoot and comes into the kitchen and sets all my nervousness aside and I realize this like minded community of empowered beauty and I might be on the same page after all. We head up the beautiful staircase into a room where there are a wall of mirrors.. This is it! This is where I will shoot. The cool grey, blue, and white tones of the mirrors and lighting conveys the ease and calm that was taking over and now I was ready to shoot. She chose a romantic black dress of mine that mirrored the draping of the curtain near by and then we began. I am a dancer after all and I think that translated into the ease of transition to other poses as I let the movement sway me. Like tides rippling across the shore into it's next phase over and over I felt fluid. I remember the flush of emotion I felt when I realized I didn't feel ill anymore.. I didn't feel naked.. I wasn't nervous.. It was as good as any first time could be.

@missy thank you for inviting me