blah. time to blog.
i am struggling with my ordinary life right now. everyday is the same, sprinkled with a few moments of complete lunacy, thanks to my dementia patients. i am so tired of my job. i love my patients and i like the building I work for, but I am sick of finding the balance between providing the care that needs to be given and keeping the building in the black. my ethics are challenged everyday.
it makes me sad. this is what healthcare has become. i've known it for a while. i just hate being in the thick of it everyday.
yuck. so i found a position for a school system OTA and applied for it last week. i haven't heard anything. i need something new. NOW.
i have been watching LA Ink and Project Runway - this makes me hate my normal job even more. I also follow Alissa Brunelli on FB and seeing her days in pics makes me oh-so-jealous. I am in desperate need of a hiatis.
Vegas is only a month away. that cannnot happen fast enough.
I have been horrible about taking pics lately. Sorry.
My stupid sister continues to be stupid. I'm so tired of her and her lies and false reality. I have tried to be supportive, even bought her a crib. Meanwhile she lost her job a month ago, continues to lie about it (saying she JUST got fired last week, when in fact my grandpa, whom she lives with, went to check up on her a few weeks ago and the receptionist lady said she hadn't worked there in a month!) Super pissed off. Our other sister is getting married in less than a month so I am forced to be around her for all the parties and stuff, but i secretly (well maybe not-so-secretly) just want to punch her in the mouth.
Gah!
Something has to give. I'm super cynical and unhappy lately. And that is NOT ME. I'm typically a very upbeat, bubbly person, and I am finding it hard to get out of bed every morning. I don't like it. I'm going to start working out again. I took a break this summer while Kiddo had t-ball, but he starts school next week, so i'm going to get back on it.
I want a new tattoo so bad. And I have an amazing idea. I just can't draw for shit. I need to sit down and consult with the girl who did my last tattoo. She was really nice and her portfolio was impressive.
I feel a rebelious streak coming on.
i am struggling with my ordinary life right now. everyday is the same, sprinkled with a few moments of complete lunacy, thanks to my dementia patients. i am so tired of my job. i love my patients and i like the building I work for, but I am sick of finding the balance between providing the care that needs to be given and keeping the building in the black. my ethics are challenged everyday.
it makes me sad. this is what healthcare has become. i've known it for a while. i just hate being in the thick of it everyday.
yuck. so i found a position for a school system OTA and applied for it last week. i haven't heard anything. i need something new. NOW.
i have been watching LA Ink and Project Runway - this makes me hate my normal job even more. I also follow Alissa Brunelli on FB and seeing her days in pics makes me oh-so-jealous. I am in desperate need of a hiatis.
Vegas is only a month away. that cannnot happen fast enough.
I have been horrible about taking pics lately. Sorry.
My stupid sister continues to be stupid. I'm so tired of her and her lies and false reality. I have tried to be supportive, even bought her a crib. Meanwhile she lost her job a month ago, continues to lie about it (saying she JUST got fired last week, when in fact my grandpa, whom she lives with, went to check up on her a few weeks ago and the receptionist lady said she hadn't worked there in a month!) Super pissed off. Our other sister is getting married in less than a month so I am forced to be around her for all the parties and stuff, but i secretly (well maybe not-so-secretly) just want to punch her in the mouth.
Gah!
Something has to give. I'm super cynical and unhappy lately. And that is NOT ME. I'm typically a very upbeat, bubbly person, and I am finding it hard to get out of bed every morning.
I don't like it. I'm going to start working out again. I took a break this summer while Kiddo had t-ball, but he starts school next week, so i'm going to get back on it.
I want a new tattoo so bad. And I have an amazing idea. I just can't draw for shit. I need to sit down and consult with the girl who did my last tattoo. She was really nice and her portfolio was impressive.
I feel a rebelious streak coming on.
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My brain is too tired to even attempt any real theories about the health industry and everything else... as if my ideas would change anything.
My ordinary life is about to become even more busy with work now and.... I'm really starting to not look forward to ordinary life at all. I want to escape again. Chicago for the weekend was entertaining (although I missed my sleep) but I'd trade that for sleep and working myself to death. *sigh*
Let's escape! I'm down!