krypticmtphr

A big reason I left the military was because I wanted control of my life back. I wanted to be close to people I cared about again. Sadly, the best job I got, while it does pay very well with just about as much hours as I want (and then some), makes it almost impossible to be able to spend time with my friends. I can taste the irony, but I also have to eat it because jobs are hard to come by. :/ The biggest thing that gets me down is the fact that I am not able to date because of it, especially when I finally managed to get a date with this one girl I had a crush on for months. Sadly, I don't think she likes me nearly as much as I like her, so I'm looking at it as something that was going to happen eventually.

I suppose what bothers me most is that for the past 4-5 years I haven't been able to be in an actual relationship and being single is honestly getting old. But, gotta get things done to keep up with my goals. Even if it means working on a job that eats my soul. I'm just getting tired of my work life bleeding away my personal life. At least this one is only temporary before I head off to the next step in my life.

Ending on a better note: Today two guys said I have a nice ass. About the only comment I could respond with was "Thanks, I do a lot of squats..." which I don't think made the situation any better. Guess the working out is yielding results. Even if that wasn't exactly what I was going for.