Why! It's Debbie Downer!!!
You know how hopes and the feeling of accomplishment fly up and you get so excited you're pretty much going to explode--- only to have a big obstacle in your (short) life hit you and things start coming back down like a led balloon.
That's kiiiinda how I feel right now. And by "kiiinda" I mean extremely. I'm actually disappointed in myself before anything's happened yet. I don't even know what's going to happen.
For all I know though, the job thing, I'm gonna end up at square one again. I'm almost anticipating it.
This is one of those moments I wish I was a little kid again. When I didn't have to worry about anything at all. And, yeah, I know, I'm probably taking things way out of proportion and getting all dramatic. But, seriously, all I want is a steady fucking pay check.
at least the weekend was good. and really I'm young, I have a whole life ahead of me. but honestly, I've never really ever succeeded at something. At least I don't think so.
I just wanted to succeed at something, I want to be more than just a person family and people chuckle at because she spends her day getting a degree she doesn't know at all what to do with and spends all her free time sitting around doing nothing, and who's favorite pass time is drinking the cheapest beer possible.
I hope it all works out. That's all I'm really asking for.
You know how hopes and the feeling of accomplishment fly up and you get so excited you're pretty much going to explode--- only to have a big obstacle in your (short) life hit you and things start coming back down like a led balloon.
That's kiiiinda how I feel right now. And by "kiiinda" I mean extremely. I'm actually disappointed in myself before anything's happened yet. I don't even know what's going to happen.
For all I know though, the job thing, I'm gonna end up at square one again. I'm almost anticipating it.
This is one of those moments I wish I was a little kid again. When I didn't have to worry about anything at all. And, yeah, I know, I'm probably taking things way out of proportion and getting all dramatic. But, seriously, all I want is a steady fucking pay check.
at least the weekend was good. and really I'm young, I have a whole life ahead of me. but honestly, I've never really ever succeeded at something. At least I don't think so.
I just wanted to succeed at something, I want to be more than just a person family and people chuckle at because she spends her day getting a degree she doesn't know at all what to do with and spends all her free time sitting around doing nothing, and who's favorite pass time is drinking the cheapest beer possible.
I hope it all works out. That's all I'm really asking for.
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BUT, you, m'dear, are talented and witty and CHARISMATIC as hell, and i know you'll succeed at no matter what you end up doing, degree-related or not. it just sucks to feel the damn wight of the world on your shoulders when we can't even legally drink yet.
i heart you.
?jess.
[Edited on Sep 27, 2005 2:46AM]