Hooray For Summer; Time to Rise From the Ashes, Kid.
There are things lately that I haven't let go. I think I'm realizing now (which I should have before, I think I've just been really scared to) that I really seriously have to. I haven't talked to many people about it-- and I don't want to, especially because I know some people would beat me-- of course the beating would be out of love, mind you. However--- I've kept trying to give myself signs-- I guess it's easy to say that because I see someone at work all the time... It was serious to begin with, and it's still serious and nothing will ever change a thing about it. I've been waiting and waiting..... I can't wait anymore to see if things will get better. they won't.
I think I needed to learn by myself, and now I've gotten the lesson down.
Why do situations like this always have to hurt? I tried to be so careful to not get myself into something like I did-- and I did anyway. Hm.
OK... seriously, I need to write about happy things now because lately all I've been is Debbie Downer and that's really fucking not cool.
I'm finally out of school for ze summer. I decided this year not to take classes and just work as well as be a jack-ass and not do anything. Mainly because last semester became so stressful that I was actually thinking to myself maybe I should just take a break from college-- and also that I hated it.... Now, I'm a nerd so all of that was really unnatural for me. Sometimes I sit and freak out about this decision-- mainly because I'm not used to not having something to do, but, I have work-- and I need to catch up with friends..
Speaking of which-- lets hang out. I have time now. I haven't seen any of you in a LONG while. I miss everyone. I realized that last week when I went to a party and saw people.
Lets hang out.
Lately I've been hanging out with PattyCakes6 and I couldn't be more happy about it. I haden't seen her in a long time, and, it's been really great being able to. Also, I've been hanging out with our mutual friend Yessica-- whom I used to mention quite a lot here, and haven't because I did not (clearly) have a life.
There are things lately that I haven't let go. I think I'm realizing now (which I should have before, I think I've just been really scared to) that I really seriously have to. I haven't talked to many people about it-- and I don't want to, especially because I know some people would beat me-- of course the beating would be out of love, mind you. However--- I've kept trying to give myself signs-- I guess it's easy to say that because I see someone at work all the time... It was serious to begin with, and it's still serious and nothing will ever change a thing about it. I've been waiting and waiting..... I can't wait anymore to see if things will get better. they won't.
I think I needed to learn by myself, and now I've gotten the lesson down.
Why do situations like this always have to hurt? I tried to be so careful to not get myself into something like I did-- and I did anyway. Hm.
OK... seriously, I need to write about happy things now because lately all I've been is Debbie Downer and that's really fucking not cool.
I'm finally out of school for ze summer. I decided this year not to take classes and just work as well as be a jack-ass and not do anything. Mainly because last semester became so stressful that I was actually thinking to myself maybe I should just take a break from college-- and also that I hated it.... Now, I'm a nerd so all of that was really unnatural for me. Sometimes I sit and freak out about this decision-- mainly because I'm not used to not having something to do, but, I have work-- and I need to catch up with friends..
Speaking of which-- lets hang out. I have time now. I haven't seen any of you in a LONG while. I miss everyone. I realized that last week when I went to a party and saw people.
Lets hang out.
Lately I've been hanging out with PattyCakes6 and I couldn't be more happy about it. I haden't seen her in a long time, and, it's been really great being able to. Also, I've been hanging out with our mutual friend Yessica-- whom I used to mention quite a lot here, and haven't because I did not (clearly) have a life.
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mnislahi:
hahah thats true!
flubbernubber:
hope you're feeling better today