kronos

Wow, its been almost a month since my last post! My apologies, loves! Been so busy with everything, blah! Well, I'm coming up on 20 weeks now. The pregnancy is healthy for the most part. I've only gained 2 lbs! And I have a hemorrhage in my uterus, which cause me to bleed almost all the time. So, for my safety and because I simply DO NOT WANT anymore children (lol), I am getting these little tubal plugs called Adiana. They are little pieces of silicon that plug both of the fallopian tubes and it only takes about 10 minutes, and its non-surgical. I'm actually kind of looking forward to it. Also, Its a BOY! :] I'm in the process of moving right now in to a bigger place, so I can start setting up the nursery for him, etc. but other than that, I'm mostly on bed rest.

Even though I am young, I feel like I've made the right decisions with my children. I mean, 10 years from now when I'm 31 my oldest child will be 14 and already in high school. My youngest, 10. I will still be able to relate to them and the music they listen to, their interests, etc. And when she goes off to college at 18, I'll only be 35, and not even 40 when my youngest does! I think having a younger mom can also benefit them, because they won't be as afraid to talk to me about things, or worry that I'm too old to understand what or how they feel about things. And they are all very close in age so of course they will have each other too. I had that problem with my brother and sister. They were 5 - 7 years older than me, so they never played with me or really interacted with me at all until I was a teenager, and by then they were adults. Speaking of the kids, they are extremely excited about their new little brother! Ashton tells me, "Mom, I'll help you!". It's very sweet.

In closing, I would also like that sincerely thank all of you that still keep voting on my set. I still can't believe its at 94%! We did so good, and Lorelei is an amazing photographer. :] I look forward to working off what little baby weight I gain and coming back and doing a new set for you guys next year! Your continued support is greatly appreciated! <3 <3 <3

xoxo

K

Also, I don't know if anyone else had heard all of Eminem's new album "Recovery", but it is FUCKING AMAZING. I feel like I can relate to pretty much every track, and I am immensely impressed by his progress from his last album "Relapse". I absolutely adore it, so if you haven't already, you should listen to a few of the tracks.

Here are a few of my favorites, in order:


Favorite lyric, "He's mad at the whole world, so go to hell and build a snowman, girl!"


This song reminds me of the first two relationships I was ever in. I can related to every single lyric of this song, like I have never been able to relate to anything before. I will post the lyrics below. This is a truly amazing song. It blew my mind the first time I heard it.


"It's a little too late to just say you're sorry now, you kicked me when I was down, fuck what you say, you don't hurt me (that's right), don't hurt me (and I don't need you) don't hurt me (don't wanna see you), no more. Bitch, you get no love." <3

"25 to Life"
Too late

For the other side

Caught in a chase

25 to life

Too late

I can't keep chasing it

Caught in a chase

25 to life



I don't think she understands

The sacrifices that I made

Maybe if this bitch had acted right

I would have stayed

But I've already wasted over half my life



I would have laid down and died for you

I longer cry for you

No more pain

Bitch you took me for granted

Took my heart and ran it straight into the planet

Into the dirt

I can no longer stand it



Now my respect

I demand it

Imma take control of this relationship

Command it

And I'm gonna be the boss of you now goddammit



And what I mean is that

I will no longer let you control me

So you better hear me out

This much you owe me

I gave up my life for you

Totally devoted to you

Why I've stayed

Faithful all the way

This is how I fucking get repaid?



Look at how I dress

Fucking baggy sweats

Go to work a mess

Always in a rush to get back to you

I ain't heard you ye

t Not even once say you appreciate me

I deserve respect



I've done my best to give you

Nothing less then perfectness

And I know that if I end this

I'll no longer have nothing left

But you keep treating me like a staircase

It's time to fucking step

And I wont be coming back

So don't hold your fucking breath



You know what you've done

No need to go in depth

I told you you'd be sorry

If I fucking left

I laughed while you wept

How's it feel now?

Yeah funny ain't it?



You neglected me

Did me a favor

Let all my spirit free

You've said

Got a special place for you

In my heart

That I have kept

It's unfortunate but it's



Too late

For the other side

Caught in a chase

25 to life

Too late

For the other side

Caught in a chase

25 to life



I feel like

When I bend over backwards for you

All you do is laugh

Cause that ain't good enough

You expect me to fold myself in half

Till I snap



Don't think I'm loyal?

All I do is rap

How can I moonlight on the side

I have no life outside of that

Don't I give you enough of my time?

You don't think so do you?



Jealous when I spend time with the girls

Why I'm married to you still

Man I don't know

But tonight I'm serving you with papers

I'm divorcing you

Go marry someone else

And make em famous



And take away their freedom

Like you did to me

Treat em like you don't need em

And they ain't worthy of you

Feed em

The same shit that you made me eat



I'm moving on

Forget you

Oh now I'm specia

l I didn't feel special when I was with youu

All I ever felt was this

Helplessness Imprisoned by a selfish bitch

Chew me up and spit me out I fell for this

So many times It's ridiculous

And still I stick with this

I'm sick of this



But in my sickness

And addiction

Your addictive as they get

Evil as they come

Vindictive as they make em

My friends keep asking me

Why I can't just walk away from

I'm addicted



To the pain, the stress

The drama

I'm drawn to shit

So I guess I'm a mess

Cursed and blessed

But this time I

Ain't changing my mind

I'm climbing out this abyss



Your screaming as I walk out

That I'll be missed

But when you spoke of people

Who meant the most to you

You left me off the list

Fuck you

I'm leaving you

My life sentence is served bitch

And it's just



Too late

For the other side

Caught in a chase

25 to life

Too late

For the other side

Caught in a chase

25 to life

Too late

Caught in a chase

25 to life