kronos

:sigh: I'm SO ready to get out of here. I'm leaving tomorrow evening. Today was awful. Today I got a harassing phone call from a jealous asshole. Pretending to be someone that they weren't. Then I got called fat by a friend. Or someone I THOUGHT was a friend. And I'm not talking subtle hints. He flat out said, "Hey, you look really fat now."

Seriously? Everything is telling me to get the hell out of here. Before I break into a million pieces.

And then, there's this guy. I don't know how to react and I stumble over my words when I talk to him. I pretty much make myself look like a complete asshole. I do this stupid nervous laugh, it's ridiculous. I've known him for a while, and I've always kind of had a thing for him, it's hard not to. Idkkkkkk. Everything about him intoxicates me. His voice, his touch, his scent. It's like being drunk off someone's presence. It's retarded. I need to clear my head. Though I dont know if this is really going to help or not, or just confuse me more.

I just need some air. I'm suffocating.