kronos

I've been aching all day. Since I woke up. Literally. My entire body, every bone and muscle, feels like its on fire. Its the most seering pain I've ever felt in my life. Not to mention my back seems ever more sensitive today than it has in a month. I woke up in pain, and eventually passed out on a pillow on the floor, after I literally slid to my knees out of my computer chair because the pain was too much to take. I don't want to take pain pills, because I don't want to get addicted. I slept for a bit, on the floor of course, and now I feel a tiny bit better. But every muscle still hurts. I've never been in so much pain before. I almost feel like I'm dying. And the best part about it is, that when I did actually crumble to the floor and pass out for a few minutes and I came too, my husband was still sitting on the couch, playing WoW. He didn't even look up. I laid there FOR AN HOUR, not two feet away from him, and not once did he offer his assistance. He yawned once, looked at me, then went back to his Battleground. I asked him for a blanket and he ignored me. I asked him for some water, ignored. I just don't understand how someone can love you, and then watch you pass out on the floor and never move a muscle to help you. I cried for like 10 minutes from how much it hurts, every part of me was throbbing. He didn't even flich. In fact, he got up and went to bed.

How can someone be so heartless? Worse yet, how can I still love him? He clearly doesn't love me back.