kronos

Ok, so, I thought I had nothing interesting to post. Interestingly enough, now I do. I just returned from the Gynecologist's office. I have had 3 pap smears in the past month, all of which the results came back 'abnormal'. I also had 3 pap smears come back abnormal back in 2007 when I was pregnant with my youngest son, but as my doctor's rubbed it off as nothing and did no further tests, as did I. But now, my tests are still abnormal, and I was just informed that further tests have to be done now to see whether or not this is cervical cancer. Yes, cancer. I don't think this has actually sunk in yet. The gravity of the fact that I might have cancer, or my doctor's seem to think so at this point. I was told to stay positive, that many times abnormal cells during a pap smear can happen and many times it does not mean cancer. But, there is this impending feeling of doom I've felt hanging over my head for quite some time. Now, I think I understand why.


EDIT: ALSO Why the fuck did it become okay for someone to tell you for months that they love you and then just one day say "Hey I changed my mind! I love someone else!" WHAT THE FUCK.