kronos

I had a long talk with myself this morning. Mostly an internal talk, except for the occasional "Mmhmm!" uttered aloud. I have come to this conclusion. If you want to talk smack about me, go right ahead. The people closest to me, the people that REALLY know me, unlike you (because, you see, you think that I told you every aspect of my life. every detail, but you are sadly mistaken) know who I really am. My family, my real friends, even my children's day care teachers, know and acknowledge what a fantastic mother I am. Nothing you say, or do, can change that. You can talk smack all you want, about your speculations on my relationship with my children, but I can count several nights in which I ditched you to spend time with them. They are, and always have been, my number one priority.

As far as who I sleep with, I really fail to see how thats any of your concern. Not to be taken in a rude tone, but quite honestly. If you are so uncaring, as you say, then why do you really care who I sleep with? Why do you care who comes in and out of my house, if anyone at all? You shouldn't. It's really not your business to begin with. I would be willing to bet my life that more men than five have looked my way in my lifetime, yet five is the number I've slept with. Five, and we were in a relationship with every one of them. Does that make me a "whore" as you so claim? I'm willing to bet not. You on the other hand .. let's just not even pull that scorecard out, shall we?

Unlike you, I'm not going to unleash the beast and release all the things you told me in confidence, simply because I am better than that. Even though at this point I don't even like you, not one shred, I'm still not going to do that. I could, believe me. But, I have more respect, not for you, but for myself. I will not drop to your level.

Just because someone stops talking to you, doesn't make them a bitch. Anyone who distances themselves from you is suddenly "talking shit" behind your back and whatever else. That's just whatever. None of this entire blog is meant to come off sarcastic, or like a smartass, but just plain honest. You need, for the sake of your own life if nothing else, to take a good long hard look in the mirror. Read over some of your AIM convos, whatever it takes, to make you see that you have a problem with taking responsibility. You have a problem with taking responsibility for yourself, for your life and for your actions, and this is not my fault. I will not take the blame for it any longer. I hope you can move on with your life, and be something and someone better than what you are being now. But that's up to you, now isn't it?

So, if you want to talk shit, go ahead. You're only making yourself look like a fool.

EDIT: And as a friend told me, it's amusing for you to write a blog complaining about someone else writing a blog, and then call their blog writing childish and immature. Just throwing that out there.