kristoph

why would she tell me these things?
i'll never understand.

i don't want to fall into "a good friend"
although i am. lord knows i am.
she'll never know how i try and look out for her.

i'll always be a laugh

it's always one step closer
and one thousand back

it's always a fleeting glance and a stolen kiss

it's always your amnesia
bringing on my insomnia

it's always that one
step
closer

and that
one
drink
easier

x

(for L)

it's too late
or too early
for this

too predictable
too deja vu

the shirt is faded and shrunken

inside
it's faded and shrunken

i've watched
from that wall
kept guard
kept notes

should've kept my distance

this silence.
?

i can't accept
that you can't be thinking

& i'm sick of running
sick of chasing
sick of making myself
sick for you

man, those days we had & the nights that we bled into.

your hometown name
turns to spit in my mouth

wish i could swallow

6 (america's on fire: the last)

hot air rises, he thought. and there's a helluva lot of it in here.
the fan just circulates, pumps it around and around and around...and, well, you get the picture.
"he's alive!"
it was supposed to drown it, or blow it away. and when exactly had he slipped into sleep and
drooled on his own arm, for fucks sake?...
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MAN O MAN! that was one fucked up party!

personal highlights for me were watching caz take part in an impromptu brass band type affair (she bust the poor guys bow) and feeling the force of nadine's belches!

there was also the yuppie folks laughing at my low slung pantaloons and shouting "I can see your batty!!" at an 11 year old girl!

i...
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caz is here again!!! yay!
today i chewed on her burger and tonight we murder....PARTY! i meant party!

that girl one happy, bouncy ball of dread head! she makes me do a big smile.

so, yes, we rocked!
and, yes, caz is the coolest!
thanks for comin down and supportin the cause lady.
(check Distorture's pics for the 411)

can't believe she won the world and i only got bristol!

i also learned this weekend that i need to brush up on my dancing skills. my twirl is not at it's strongest!

shout outs to XPISTOLX also for...
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i just watched fletch again for the millionth time tonight.
it never gets old.
chevy chase, where are you?!

i got new ink...oh yes i did!
after watching jo get her backpiece (which is sooo fucking sweet!) done by steve vinall @ evil from the needle i felt a strong urge to have him tat me, so i got him to customise a sketch in his book & slap it on the inside of my right arm.
it rocks so hard & i'm hopefully...
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