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this sky is murderous
jet black and peeling.
this static is deafening
keeping me from sleep.

i'm clutching at stars
but they're burning my fingers
and the blisters spell desire
devotion
your name.

so i'll live in those words
and the scars that they'll leave
i'll set fire to tomorrow
and i'll make you believe.



xxx



poppystrike:
That's one for the site my boy. Words rule, but only when they descibe actions. Words alone are nothing xXx
poppystrike:
Every un-played senario tormented his docile mind.
Such as the dripping tap. Groundhog day of instincts.
The future contained within the past;
The jump you won't make, the climb flawed by gravity.
The glass slipper a five and a half to her six; make it fit if you want to.
Your hand in hers, your tandom strides peeling the skin, bubbling.
But still the dance goes on.

You bask in the mellow summer heat.
She tires, autumn leaves spiral atop one another. Corpses of desire.
A seasonal metaphor of the ill-fitting pieces.

In spring a face-less soul weeps upon her cloth-bound ankles, the perfect number hidden beneath.
She waits for the icicles of your eyes to leave winter.
A flat-pack screen to make previous flings contradictory when you return.
When you return to the future.

xXx
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i need to escape here.
it sucks so bad that my best friend isn't close by all the time.


"we are the lost
the incestuous souls
our tongues drip with irony
and cheap liquor

fingers thrust forward
to embrace what they may
" i won't hold my breath"
it's all for the best

i swear i used that line
back in the day.
well check...
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poppystrike:
I don't even know what to ask for anymore. Madness. I'll be down next week for your gig, spurring on the crowds and on the look out for any low-flying team bricks. Hehe. Keep him OUT of the venue. We'll do the website soon. I've been busy doing very little of anything this weekend, but i'll start writing soon. Promise xXx
jaqueline_:
herro, how are you? i'm ristening to frankie goes to horrywood, rerax.

i'm so ronrey. actuarry, i'm not but i'm hungry so i'm going to go eat food. mmmm, vegatabres. tongue

much rove xxx

p.s. you great guy, ret's be friends forewer.
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i wish i couldn't predict my pattern of behaviour so accurately and know i can't do anything about it.
i wish i hadn't realised that the reason people leave me and fuck me over is because i make them.

but i'm so grateful the people i love most in this sorry world are willing to stick by me anyway.
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jaqueline_:
the freaks now compliment me. it's getting scary.

but anyway, i think it wouldn't be a problem in the slightest if you got a freakishly similar tattoo to me. i do however draw the line at you getting it tattooed anywhere on your forehead because that is just silly.

much love xxxxx
jaqueline_:
oh and p.s. we should so get matching jt leroy inspired tattoos.
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today i leave my bubble.

i wish everyday was waking at noon to neighbours, home and away and AlwaysBeingBlue, but it can't be.
and it makes me really fucking sad because i'd kind of convinced myself in the last week that it could.

Blue, i miss you. and i hereby announce to the whole world...well...SG (which seems to be the whole world sometimes) that...
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poppystrike:
Darling you are the bestest. I know we always talk about it, but we have to hope that one day we will do all that stuff - otherwise what is the point of anything?

It went ok today. I've got more referrals coming my way, and she wants me to go to some group therapy thing bullcrap wotsit shindig. Maybe not.

Will call you later. It's not pathertic that you don't want to go back to work - however old you get xXx
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there are words in my head that i can't form. like it's a new language. there are things that i want to be and things i want to do.
there's too much to think about, always.
there's a need to escape and the overwhelming desire to scream until my throat bleeds.
there's the realisation that people's lives carry on around you and despite you.

every...
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insomniphobiac:
hey dude. AlwaysBeingBlue told me (and everyone who reads her profile) to come tell you that you are her best friend.
_elliott_:
yes! yes! finally somebody gets it! high five! you're great!
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yeah yeah, i've been meaning to update this week, but i've been having one of the best times of my life in brum so bite me!
how cool is getting to see three of my favourite bands in two days, getting my head shaved, buying the fucking coolest shoes, new slacks AND seeing team america whilst smoking and drinking it up every night all in...
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worldofviolets:
yeah get your head out, i wanna see it. haha!
xxx shocked
poppystrike:
It was an awesome week darling. Much fun was had. You is the bestest. Big kiss kiss x
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"to save our sanity i cherished what we had and let it slip through my fingers. we couldn't keep living our lives in ten minute windows"

these are the things i want you to say in real life, fucker.
dreams aren't good enough.
that's the last time i'm gonna cry for you.
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poppystrike:
You deserve much better than her. I love you because you are the most genuine person i've ever met. You're my soul friend at the moment smile x
poppystrike:
Holiday in Birmingham more my little shaven monkey wink x
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it's amazing the power that Brand New's "deja entendu" has to make me feel miserable. but in a good way.
if that makes sense.

the past couple of days i've been flat on my back in bed. not in the good way. hehe.
i am infected with some bastard...infection.
hopefully the doc is gonna give me something to knock my ass out with in a...
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rainbowgrrl:
I want to see the used! And unfortunately i have work on the night of your gig frown it sucks next time maybe
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rainbowgrrl:
hmm i shall see when i am working and see if anyone of my friends fancy a night out.
poppystrike:
You know i'll be there. That bear thing is fucking freaky bro! But I love the bumble-bee type insect x
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so. tonight is our customary "last minute practice before headlining gig".
i spent all day online today stealing pictures and designing flyers. apart from the hour and a half i spent back in bed.
i nearly kept to my word...

anyone interested in watching four guys play some half decent music whilst falling over and/or pulling their leads out and/or cutting themselves open and/or basically...
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rainbowgrrl:
bristol isnt far from me just a shame i probably have work.