kristoph

i can't sleep anymore
there's too much.
i wake at 1, 3, 5, convinced that i've been calling people...checking my phone to make sure i haven't just said what i think i've said to that person.
i keep waking in the middle of my room clutching a pillow and wondering what the fuck i'm doing there.
my mind is restless.
and self medication isn't working.

but tomorrow i buy an ipod. see how easily consumerism takes my mind off things? oh the shallow youth.
xx