kristoph

"Nobody likes you. Everybody hates you. You're gonna lose. Smile you fuck" - Joe Hallenbeck

Good.
Grief.
You know when you think you're all fine and dandy and having a ball. Enjoying life and feeling like nothing can touch you.
And then something happens that makes you take a look at yourself and realise that nothing could be further from the truth?
That you have some things you really need to address and that maybe you've been pushing things a bit too hard?
And it feels like a huge punch in the stomach?
I'm currently winded.
Think I've spent too much time plastering over and patching up.
And alcohol doesn't make for good cement.

SO. Now is the time for music and art and writing and hopefully keeping a pictorial journal of sorts. Which if all goes to plan, I might just share on here.
Hopefully more blogging all round in fact. I think one of the main problems is that I live in my head. And there aren't many people who get to come inside. (Oh my, I actually started a sentence with 'And'. Oh well.)
So I'm going to try writing it down and seeing if it helps.
But hopefully it won't all be as miserable as this.
I'll be perky for the Bristol meet at the end of the month I promise.
But perhaps a bit more sober than usual.