krankor

i have this fealing
and its hard to explain
i may be leaving to go to bahrain before the end of oct
and this is the last weeks that i may spend with some people verry dear to me

but somehow i feel like its been building up ever scence highschool
and we have just tried to streech it out as long as we can

remember the second to last episode of cowboy bebop
when spike goes back to the ship and just does what he always does
sit and joke and eat
and just hang out just like he is going to do it tommrow and the days after
even tho he knows he isnt comming back
that is kinda how i feel now